[milliemags]

Hi Guys, Thansk you to everyone that posted me. I'm starting to feel alittle better but i'm still not sleeping well. I manage a few hours then wake up thinking about the twins. They're on my mind constantly. I don't want to forget them but it's draining thinking about them all the time. I'm hoping with time it will get better. I went back to work on Tuesday which was an experience (good not bad) everyone was really nice, couple people asked how I was and I just gave a short i'm fine and asked them about something. I hope they don't think I was being rude but I'm still really hormonal and cry quite readily and thats not something I wantd to do in work. I spoke to the hospital again about my hormones cause want to start feeling a bit more normal (if thats at all possible) they said that cause of the drugs used in IVF that I might not feel right for a couple of months till all the drugs are out of my system, and I might not get an AF for two months!!! Don't know how to feel about that really. I did post on the TTCMA board as suggested but didn't get any replies!!! Maybe the thought of miscarrage was insensitive when your stressed about all the jabs anyway, I don't know., didn't mean to be insensitive. To be honest I wish i'd known about these boards before I started the IVF, the thought I could miscarry never entered my mind, thought it was a given that i'd just get pregnant and have a baby cause I was having IVF, very niave obviously but i'm so grateful to you all for repling and helping me. Hope we all get the BFP that we all pray for. Love and hugs xxxx

[.:Shortcake:.]

Hugs hun! You will never forget your babies but in time it does get easier. I did not get AF until 10 weeks after my D&C and I had to have medicine to bring AF on. I hope your body bounces back to normal quickly and you get a sticky BFP soon. Hugs hun.

[krystal g]

It will get easier with time. I had a d&c, ovulated 2 weeks after, AF came 4 weeks after and I have been back to normal ever since...I didn't have IVF drugs...but I wanted to give you some hope that sometimes your body does bounce back quickly. **hugs**

[missy123]

Oh honey, I am so sorry. A loss is so hard and I promise it does get easier with time but the beginning is so hard and painful. Feel free to post away here, we all understand what you are going through. I cried for 2 months straight and was a mess emotionally. I honestly dont know what I would have done if it wasn't for the support I got from the girls here.

[TeresaSuperMama]

((Hugs)) Everyone heals in their own time. I have found that even myself each loss has been different for me. It's okay to be upset and emotional for longer than you think you should be. I know I have to keep reminding myself of that sometimes. I feel like I should feel better and then I don't. That's okay. I hope that today is a little easier for you.

[..Penelope..]

I'm so sorry your loss, honey. I'm glad that being here has helped you.

[*MomofO&Nat*]

I'm glad to hear the boards have helped you out. Take as long as you need to feel sad, it is a healthy emotion right now. I am in the middle of AF right now, and it took a month and a day after m/c so maybe you will bounce right back too!! Hugs to you, hon!

[milliemags]

Thank you guys, it's good to know that what i'm feeling is normal. My hubby is fab, so understanding, feel selfish but I forget that he's hurting too just maybe in a different way. I feel so much better sounding off to you all cause I know from your replies that I am normal. It's heartbreaking what we're going through but i'm so glad I found you xxxx

[charm]

I am sorry for your losses *HUGS* In time things do get easier but you never forget hun.

[Trish36]

HUGS!!! You will never forget your babies. Just remember that there will be good days and there will also be a few bad days. I's been almost 8 months since my first loss and I still have my moments. It is totally normal to feel all sorts of emotions. Hope every day gets a bit better!

I just went searching for your post in TTCMA and couldn't see anything until I searched the sub formums in IVF. Sorry that no one responded to you, but I think people forget to go anywhere but the main area.

[Kary♥RN]

Millie {HUGS} I am sorry you are going through this... It is so not fair that we are all on this board... It is hard, you will have good days, bad days, and worse days. I hope you come here on all those days! We will celebrate your good days.. and get you through your bad days! HUGS