[Celena]

I finally threw away all the + pregnancy tests that were from my 2 Angel's over the summer. I have not taken a single one out of the trash... before I threw each one away I looked at in in length then put it in. To some this is trivial, but for me it seemed like a mountain to climb over. I cry just thinking about it, but I need to take these steps to heal. I don't need them to remember, I don't need them to remind me of the ones I've in heaven watching over us because they are forever in my heart, mind & soul.

Yesterday was a hard day from the instant I woke up... sure that AF's havoc on my hormones isn't helping. So I apologize for missing all of you in the chat yesterday, I really needed to take the day for me... I did have over a couple of friends and made a latino fiesta of food. Cooking takes my mind off of things, puts me in a medative state of sorts.


Ha on the front, did I mention this fricken witch has left my nipples burning and boobs sore? This is something I've never had while AF was here, but there is a first for everything eh? Things will eventually return to normal, but for now... deal.

[Kary♥RN]

HUGS Celena... HUGS!

[momof6lopez]

Sending you hugs Celena, what a hurdle you just jumped. Im proud of you and do not find it trivial at all. I remember throwing mine out last too, it was difficult.

[krystal g]

I think that was very brave. I didn't keep any of mine and there have been times when I wish I had...I'm sure that was a very difficult thing to do. LOTS AND LOTS OF HUGS TO YOU.

[amybn]

Celena- You aren't alone with that. I still have the pictures of all my + tests on my phone & I can't bring myself to delete them. I like to remember that happy time.... I don't look at them often, but sometimes I run across them when I'm looking through my pictures... It is sad & I know that was a tough thing for you to do.... (((HUGS)))

[stargatemommy]

I totally understand this! Good job taking this step. I threw mine out after I took pictures, but I still have pictures of my BFPs from all my losses... I don't think I'll ever delete them!

[TeresaSuperMama]

(((Hugs)))) I threw mine away recently, but I still have all the pics. I figure I can look at them that way if I need to. I think that is a big step as well.

[..Penelope..]

Celena.

[missy123]

((HUGS Celena)). It was a big step.

[KDD]

[Jackjack]

Hi Celena, What you're talking about is by no means trivial I had all mine in the drawer of my bedside table. I threw mine away when we moved house and put all our belongings into storage in June. In June I was also in my first trimester of this pregnancy and also found it a very difficult thing to do, my DH works night shift and I would look at them when he wasn't there, such an emotional thing. It may only be a stick but what it symbolises is much much more..

I hope your feeling better soon hun I can really relate to what you're going thru

[HopefulMommy81]

Congratulations on another step of moving on (that might sound bad, I can't think of the word I want to use)!!! I hope you continue to heal and we are here for you!

[MountainMomma]

:dothug:

I'm glad that you posted this so that I know other people do this too. I held on to my tests from all of my losses for a very long time. In fact, I *just* threw them away in June when we were moving. It was so difficult to do and I sobbed for hours afterwards. I think it is a major step, and I know how hard it is to take that step.

[Celena]

I love you all, I love that we are all connected like cyber-sisters... you all seem to always understand and have similar if not the same feelings. Thank you for lifting me back up onto my feet!

I have pictures of them too, but I want to be able to clear the emotions so we can welcome them back, that we really want them to come into our family! I had a peaceful passing feeling that this is going to be the happy cycle! I welcomed AF to start and feel really good that this might be the month :-) I pray!

[farasha]

hugs celena! i hope you're finding peace!