[Celena]

I've been busy-ish, I work on the busiest days at my job... being that it's a favorite locals restaurant those days are Wednesdays, Fridays and Saturdays. Been getting in earlier because of all the baking and dishes I need to make prior to regular produce prep. So if I seem silent on the weekends, or nearly non-existant it's usually because I'm working or resting until I go to work. I do try to get on afterwards, but I really need to scale back on my late late night computer time, already deal with insomnia


It's been so hard tho lately because I've been so EXHAUSTED!!! I can't seem to get enough sleep. Perhaps my emotions have taken such a toll on me physically? The weather has been rainy off and on, it's a sleepy time of year anyways... shoot the animals are getting ready to hibernate IDK?


I still go to the counsellor, but what progress are we having... well, trying to manage things naturally and by talking *jic* I am to get pg. Really trying to be careful about medications, especially since we'll never know 110% why my 1st loss this summer happened. I don't take a few of the meds I did then, so, who knows I'd rather be safe than sorry. I try to remember that there have been many women concieve healthy babies under much harsher physical, medical conditions.


Onto fertile news... I'm gearin up to O, already on CD12! My OPK was MUCH MUCH darker today, didn't think it would be until around the 30th, but HEY I'm not complaining about the possiblity of shorter cycle and maybe a July baby?! (Com'on July babies!!! WOOT WOOT WOOT!!!)

[momof6lopez]

Sounds like your in much better spirits! Happy to hear from you and praying this is your month Celena, that would be the best mental therapy out there!

[Celena]

I wouldn't say that I'm exactly doing better, that's far fetched for me to claim... I have allot of moments, but do try to get out and do things. Went to a Halloween party on saturday after work and had a great time. But the fun wears off and reality hits, then there I am again. The fibro pain is pretty bad this time of year so I attribute a good portion of my lack of handling things emotionally well on it. My counsellor also said when you're dealing with diseases, health issues that are particularly painful it alters your coping skills for regular daily life type things (bills, meddling IL's, stress or sadness period) that you just can't handling things the way your used to. (NO **** SHERLOCK!)

Anywho... thanks Lori! I'm trying to get out and go workout before I loose ALL motivation! I'm in so much pain so I'm dragging to get ready. :-P blech!

[krystal g]

I totally understand Celena. This is week 9 of my broken foot - not that I am in any way comparing my broken bone to your disease and your long term pain and issues...I know I don't have room to complain - but I've had to deal with a lot of pain and loss of independence and just general crappiness related to this physical problem. And it really does affect everything else in your life. When you are feeling physically bad and in pain, and limited by what you can and can't do, you kinda get depressed...or at least I have. It's hard to have a positive outlook, it's hard to deal with day-to-day problems, and sometimes the smallest of things seems like huge obstacles. I never realized before just how much pain affects you mentally and emotionally...

Anyway, I just wanted to say that I'm thinking about you and hope you get through this difficult time and your pain level at least decreases some.

And I hope this month will be your BFP month!!!

[*MomofO&Nat*]

Hi Celena,
I just wanted to say I am thinking of you and hoping you get the rest you need. It is hard enough to TTC when you are feeling good, but it is awful if you are feeling run down. It would be awesome to have July babies, I am on the same CD as you and hoping we can both get BFPs at the same time! My son was born July 12th so it would be cool to have my next be the same month (except the birthday parties and presents part) LOL Thinking of you and appreciating you taking the time to update us even when you are so busy!

[TeresaSuperMama]

Hi Celena, glad to hear about your positive OPK! At least that is good news! I don't know much about fibro, but I sure hope you are feeling less exhausted soon.