[amybn]

I just looked at the Dec DDC (I would have been due Dec 4th, 2009). I was looking at all the baby bumps & thinking about how I might have looked by now. Now I feel like crap & I'm sad all over again. I just want to know what it feels like to carry my baby close to me.... sorry for being a Debbie-Downer, just venting.... I really hope I get a BFP soon! This aching in my heart is terrible!

[*MomofO&Nat*]

Oh Amy, HUGS! I know how you feel. It is really hard to go back to the board you 'were' on and see the progress. I have a friend who is due the day after I was supposed to be due and seeing her belly growing is sometimes tough for me. It will happen for you, it's ok to feel down sometimes. We wouldn't be human if we didn't feel sadness. I hope your day gets a bit better soon!

[MonkeyBugMommy]

I do the same thing to myself. I go back and visit the January DDC when I know I shouldn't because it makes me sad. I know how you feel!

[Kary♥RN]

HUGS.... I can say that is one thing I never did... Maybe because I had to look at it in real life... My Loss in Nov... My DH bestfriends wife... Our due dates were days apart... Than my loss in Jan.. My SIL was three weeks ahead of me.... So I didn't have to kick my self in the gut looking in the DDC... I had to live it.. and it sucks... I am just glad I don't have any May due dates in real life I have to see..... HUGS to you.. I know how much it hurts..

[beccasmom7718]

I take a peak in the april ddc once and a while and then get down. My best friend was due 2 weeks after me my first m/c and she has a 3.5month old son now and my SO's best friends gf was due 2 days after me and has a son now...my other friend was due a week before me my second m/c and she has a little boy now and since we are all good friends we see each other alllll the time...it sucks
if you ever need to chat just msg me. and heres hoping for your BFP soon

[mommie2many]

I do the same, I go peak on the April DDC look around then I get upset. I hope I get a BFP soon.

[Celena]

I TOTALLY feel you, but I always have my dang DH telling me about every dang soul who's just had a baby... then his BF's wife (who we found out the same day and were the EXACT same far along, same due date) well they just found out yesterday they'er having another girl! So YES, it's heart breaking and gut wretching... I TOTALLY UNDERSTAND WHERE YOU ARE COMING FROM, but I didn't go look it's been thrown in my face :-/ (not thrown as in a ssarcastic way, I mean literally) I would be 20wks and have a nice baby bump with a little wiggle worm in it... maybe a boy, maybe a girl... I will never know!



and then to get pg before af had shown only to have my ex-ob doc to murder that baby, I would have been 16 weeks if he didn't murder my unborn child! I have allot of anger in me about that still... and my husband just can't understand why it hurts to have newborns and pregnancy thrown in my face. I am getting better, I can say those words without crying... I just couldn't go to either DDC to *see* what I don't have. It's not worth the pain and agony, you're a much stronger soul than I to do that Amy. I'm sorry it hurts so much, the pain will never totally go away and you'll never forget.... but it has gotten a little easier tho, right?

I hope you have a better day, sorry that it hurts so much!!!

I'm sorry if I sound angry or sad, I am deep inside... but working thru it everyday! It's not you hon!

[missy123]

I do the same thing... and it is even harder now that some of them are having their babies. I understand how you feel. Part of us keeps going in the DDClubs and then we just end up hurting.

[krystal g]

I do it too. I peek in the Jan DDC every once in a while. I just can't help myself.

[Celena]

I do have to say that even tho I know that they're going to have their baby the exact EDD of mine (our friends) it's sort of nice to look forward to is having our own "EDD" not to share with them! I try to look at it that we will expect a bundle, but when we don't know... hopefully sooner than later, but that's something God holds and not us.

[katinagj]

I don't have the courage to even go into my DDC's(May and July). I know that soon there will be lots of baby bump pictures, and I just wouldn't be able to handle seeing them. You are a strong woman to be able to even look. I'm sad that so many of you girls have to go through this..we just have to be strong together and find a way to get through.


I am lucky enough that my DH is very understanding about how I feel when I see pregnant women and babies. I don't think he quite gets it, but he is understanding enough that he doesn't even ask if he sees me tear up after seeing a baby. I really hope we all get our BFP's soon and get to see our bellies grow nice and big.

[amybn]

thanks ladies!! it's nice to know I'm not alone in feeling like this...

celena- I think that it's great to see the positive side of having your own due date! I know it's hard watching your friends have what was taken from you! I know your BFP will come soon!

here's to our future baby bumps! *hugs*

[iVari]

I too check in on my old DDC every now and then. I want to know that the ladies there are doing well and then I start to feel so sad and sorry for myself. Hopefully this sorrow and pain will turn to happiness and joy for us all very soon. (((HUGS))) to you all..

[Trish36]

Amy, sorry you are feeling down. I went back to my Sept. DDC to see who had already given birth and felt like crying. You are definately not alone. HUGS!!!