My update

MountainMomma · #1 October 31st, 2009, 06:28 AM

DH brought home a 2 pack of FRER digi's last night (bless his heart) but I decided to wait until morning to pee. I had a houseful of kids half the night, and by the time they all left there was no way I was staying up late enough to test last night. I also threw a tantrum and made him give me back my thermometer. (He hid it because he thought I was obsessing.)

First hint this morning that something wasn't right was my temp. It plummetted. Then I went to the bathroom and peed. That's when I realized I was spotting. It was light though, so I still held on to a little hope. I dipped the FRER digi and waited. BFN.

Now, while I didn't post pictures of every single test (because most of them were really light) I had lines on 6 test, 4 different brands. I really find it hard to believe that they were all evaps. Especially since the were showing up immediately. I'm guessing another chemical. Loss number 7. I'm okay. Numb, but okay. Thank you for your prayers ladies, and forgive me if I disappear for a bit.... I need time to just.....I don't know. I just need a little time.

momof6lopez · #2 October 31st, 2009, 07:16 AM

Stephanie, Im so terribly sorry. You just did not deserve this, nobody does. Please take all the time you need. God bless your family right now.

Celena · #3 October 31st, 2009, 07:32 AM

I think it's to the point where they need to take all the EARLY response pregnancy tests off the market because if we didn't know until or after AF was due, maybe we wouldn't be so devastated so often... I HATE IT!!! I HATE THAT SO MANY HAVE BEEN HURT BY THIS.... I AM EXTREMELY SORRY STEPHANIE!!!

I would still go to your doctor and have him run quantative beta's... to see what really went on.

krystal g · #4 October 31st, 2009, 07:32 AM

I'm so sorry Stephanie. you don't deserve this sweetie. Take all the time you need.

MonkeyBugMommy · #5 October 31st, 2009, 07:53 AM

I'm so sorry, Stephanie.

TeresaSuperMama · #6 October 31st, 2009, 08:34 AM

(((Hugs))) I am very sorry Stephanie.

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Originally Posted by Celena

I think it's to the point where they need to take all the EARLY response pregnancy tests off the market because if we didn't know until or after AF was due, maybe we wouldn't be so devastated so often... I HATE IT!!! I HATE THAT SO MANY HAVE BEEN HURT BY THIS.... I AM EXTREMELY SORRY STEPHANIE!!!

I would still go to your doctor and have him run quantative beta's... to see what really went on.

I hear you. I am not totally sure if I am going to test early this cycle. I haven't made up my mind yet whether I'd rather just not know this time. I'm a POAS addict though so odds are I will test.

Kary♥RN · #7 October 31st, 2009, 08:48 AM

Stephanie.. I am so sorry... This is so not fair...

At this point.. I would talk to you dr.. Have you had tests runned? I spoke at long length to my OB.. I will be starting Progesterone right after Ovulation... Since I can get pregnant... just not stay pregnant. Maybe we are starting the Progesterone too late (If you have low Progesterone, If you start it after your BFP it is too late) Progesterone has to be started about 24 hours after Ovulation for it to be effective. At this point If your HPT is negative... I am not sure if Bloodwork would even pick up any numbers.. Since you have started to spot at this point.

As for the early HPT's... While yes.. it is hurts to know.. I would rather know... that I was pregnant.. that I had that life for even just a second.. Also for testing on WHY... It is nice to have ammo saying I have had 3-4-5 early losses.. Just think of how many women would still be waiting to start testing??
It really is a double edge sword... But A sword I am willing to fall on.. to hold a baby in my arms!

starrsgirl · #8 October 31st, 2009, 09:17 AM

I am so sorry!!!! This SUCKS, def SUCKS. I don't remember if you have had testing done either....have you? If not, it's time to demand some answers from your doc!

Hang in there...we are all thinking of you.

missy123 · #9 October 31st, 2009, 09:45 AM

I am so sorry.... Take all the time you need. I will miss you and we will be here for you when you get back. (((Hugs)))

KDD · #10 October 31st, 2009, 10:13 AM

I'm so sorry Steph. That is definitely the downside to testing early. I agree that it's probably time to insist on some testing.

*MomofO&Nat* · #11 October 31st, 2009, 10:17 AM

Stephanie,
There really are no words that will help, but I really am so so sorry. I agree with Celena, the FRERs are good and bad for many reasons. Maybe it is good to take a break from the boards and sort things out with your doc right now. Thinking of you!!

MountainMomma · #12 October 31st, 2009, 10:18 AM

I have had some testing done. At this point, everything has come back normal. I am doing a ton of research right now. We were planning on going back and starting IUI in the spring anyway. Now I am going to demand that we redo a few tests, and do some other less common tests. I am going to demand progesterone (even if he doesn't thing I *need* it. Obviously, the Clomid alone isn't doing the job. If he doesn't listen to me, I am going to find another doctor. I have had a few recommendations. The problem being, I already drive over an hour one way to get to this doctor. The next closest options are 2-3 hours away. I'll deal with the commute if it gets me a baby though.

One thing is for sure... I am going to have to be more demanding. More insistent. I can't keep doing this, and someone is going to help me find some answers.

Trish36 · #13 October 31st, 2009, 06:20 PM

I'm so sorry Stephanie! HUGS!!!

zkat · #14 November 1st, 2009, 06:42 AM

Oh Stephanie - my heart is just breaking for you! I knew this was going to be it for you! Lots of hugs, and if you need anything, I am here.

Kat.

JessP · #15 November 1st, 2009, 07:36 AM

I am so sorry

I hope you get some answers soon and a baby too.

Celena · #16 November 1st, 2009, 10:32 AM

Steph I'm glad to hear that you're going to request having some testing redone, and some other more specific testing. It could be something they are MISSING because of certain tests they haven't run... it's so delicate. There's so many things that it could and may not be... I just hope they can help you find an answer or something to better help you! It could be as simple as carrying a virus or infection around. (which is what a doc had mentioned to me with my 1st loss over the summer)

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So, as far as what I said before, it just upsets me off that so many of us have been devastated by miscarriages and losses!!! It was said out of hurt and compassion, not so literal... I'm just going to leave it at that.