[erinangele]

I just found out yesterday that i had an early m/c. I was 6 weeks yesterday when i found out. This was my first loss, and i think im still in a bit of denial. We were ttc this little bean, and will ttc again within the next cycle or so.

I am looking forward to ttc again, but suddenly im having all of these thoughts about my ability to carry a baby. When i was pregnant with Enzo, i had severe bleeding, cramping, and contractions when i was 8 weeks along, followed by 2 other episodes of bleeding. Everything turned out to be fine and i carried him to term. He was breech, and at that time i did find out that i have an irregular shapped uterus. Now im having these thoughts that maybe this happened because of my uterus shape? Maybe the fact that i carried Enzo was a fluke, and i wont be able to carry again.

I felt a little blind sidded when i found out i lost this bean. I started bleeding on Sat. Its been pretty much like an af, without any cramps. My first u/s was on Wed. and there was nothing in my uterus. I had my levels drawn after my appointment, and they were 67. I get them checked again tomorrow. To be honest i felt like everything was going to be ok, since i had much worse bleeding with Enzo. I guess i feel blind sidded by the whole thing.

Anyway, sorry this got kind of long. I just needed to get my ttcal fears out, and i felt like this is the only place where i can find other women who can relate.

[SkyBaby]

I'm so sorry. *hugs* That's awful. Rant away. We're here for you. We all know how you feel. I lost my first (and so far only) pregnancy at around 6 weeks as well. Like you almost no cramps but bleeding heavily. It's great Enzo turned out to be fine, though. Bleeding is so scary when there isn't supposed to be any. *hugs*

[Kary♥RN]

HUGS, I am so sorry for your loss... You have come to the right place.. We all have these feelings.. And Welcome to the board.. what you are feeling is common.. We are here for you, HUGS for what you are going through.. HUGS

[~InHisHands~]

I'm so sorry for your loss!

[Trish36]

I'm so sorry for your loss!!!

[momof6lopez]

Welcome here, and I pray your stay is nice and short. Feel free to vent any frustrations you might feel here, as we have most likely been there too. Im so sorry for your loss.