FSH levels are in

momof6lopez · #1 November 12th, 2009, 12:57 PM

and there not so good. 14.3. My dr. had warned me about my past cancer treatments damaging my eggs, I knew this going in. But Im having a hard time trying to digest it today. I think I could live with the dr. telling me, your just old, this happens. But all the bad news in my life has stemmed from cancer, and I cannot escape its ugly path. I live in fear, in the shadows of cancer every day of my life. There is no escape.

My dr.'s threshold for FSH is 15. I just got under, bairly. I dont know what they will do for me from this point forward. They have scheduled my HSG testing and follie scan for next week, so I take that as a going forward with treatment. I think what this means, is yes I do have eggs left and yes I can get pregnant, but the quality is not so good leaving me with an even more high risk of m/c'ing.

I have to wait for the AMH screen to come back next week, this will tell me if the eggs I have left are of normal quality. I guess you can have a high FSH and still have good/normal quality eggs in there. If that test comes back abnormal, then I will close the doors to this journey and start my new journey, whatever that might be.

I leave all of this at Gods door step today, because I cannot control what happened in my past with my cancer. Only God will know if Im to be blessed one more time with my new husband or not.

I will continue to chart and try until Im told that there is no more hope. but if the next lab comes in bad and they cannot give me medication to help, than I will not risk having multiple m/c's to find the good egg.

I will keep you posted, and plan to still be here until all stones have been unturned.

krystal g · #2 November 12th, 2009, 01:04 PM

I'm sorry Lori. I hope you get better news with the AMH. I'm hoping this journey is not over for you yet. You are strong...I hope you will be blessed with one more baby because you deserve it. HUGS.

missy123 · #3 November 12th, 2009, 01:08 PM

I love you very much.... we will get through this no matter what. xoxoxo

Kary♥RN · #4 November 12th, 2009, 03:13 PM

Oh Lori, HUGS! I wish I could say that this will be ok.. I can only wish all the tests come back ok.. and I will be praying that having that little miracle in your arms soon!

Celena · #5 November 12th, 2009, 04:26 PM

Lori I'm still very hopeful for you! I just don't think your fate is void of at least one little one for you and your DH!!! The results might be worrisome, BUT you're NOT above their "number" and everything seems a go. Don't lose faith just yet woman, we won't let you!

*MomofO&Nat* · #6 November 12th, 2009, 04:58 PM

Oh Lori,
You are such a wonderful supportive person on these boards and I want nothing more than for you to be successful soon! Thinking of you!

momof6lopez · #7 November 12th, 2009, 05:06 PM

thank you everyone, my heart is breaking tonight. To make matters worse, I walk in tonight from work only to find my free can of formula waiting for me in a big box that says "congratulations". This was from my loss in April that was due Nov 2. Then my son says to me "mom, which pregnancy was this from?", in a jokingly manner, I just lost it.

krystal g · #8 November 12th, 2009, 05:27 PM

Oh Lori....HUGS.

momof6lopez · #9 November 12th, 2009, 05:32 PM

Hey, I just told Missy, If I can get pregnant enough times and get more free formula, I can sell it to pay for fertility treatments...Sick, I know, Im in that ugly kind of mind right now...Sorry

KDD · #10 November 12th, 2009, 08:25 PM

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Originally Posted by momof4lopez

thank you everyone, my heart is breaking tonight. To make matters worse, I walk in tonight from work only to find my free can of formula waiting for me in a big box that says "congratulations". This was from my loss in April that was due Nov 2. Then my son says to me "mom, which pregnancy was this from?", in a jokingly manner, I just lost it.

Oh Lori, isn't that awful? I swear that I will not put my name on any list when I'm pg again - ever!

My friend told me about her cousin whose egg quality was crap. Basically the egg would fall apart when it got fertilized. She was still able to have twin girls. So don't give up hope. Your FSH is still within their benchmark.

starrsgirl · #11 November 12th, 2009, 09:12 PM

I'm so sorry. Big hugs.

Kary♥RN · #12 November 12th, 2009, 09:55 PM

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Originally Posted by momof4lopez

Hey, I just told Missy, If I can get pregnant enough times and get more free formula, I can sell it to pay for fertility treatments...Sick, I know, Im in that ugly kind of mind right now...Sorry

OH THIS IS SOOOOO A coment that I would make... I guess this is what we have come too after multiple losses, Fertility issues, the unknown inssues... you know how it goes... OH yea I forgot we are holding hands in this journey!

Mel1979 · #13 November 13th, 2009, 01:14 AM

I am so sorry Lori

I am thinking of you and pray that you and your DH get to have a baby together

Trish36 · #14 November 13th, 2009, 06:53 AM

Lori..HUGS!!!! don't give up hope. Your FSH level changes with differnt cycles. So just because it's high one time, doesn't mean it's always high. There's got to be some healthy eggies in there.