I just needed somewhere to talk..

ldovey83 · #1 November 24th, 2009, 03:21 PM

My best friend is in labor as we speak right now.. I am very happy for her don't get me wrong but I hurt on the inside... WE started trying to concieve around the same time.. She got pregnant like instantly while I took 3 months to get pregnant and then lost the first baby and then the second baby.. So it has been really hard on me for her to talk about her pregnancy and all.. Now that the baby will be here soon my heart is breaking and I am soo jealous knowing I should be right around here too.. I know this is normal. I just wanted somewhere to talk and others to relate too.. Thanks for listening..

HopefulMommy81 · #2 November 24th, 2009, 04:01 PM

I'm glad you were able to find us and let your feelings out to us today! I'm so sorry for what you're going through- loss is so hard, but having a reminder of it all the time is just horrible! We're all here for you and I really hope you get your sticky BFP soon! And I hope you're able to be with your best friend and share in her joy as well!

Pink.Crazy · #3 November 24th, 2009, 04:04 PM

I'm sorry hun, times like this are really hard. I go back to work on Thursday, and just knowing I'll see 2 bumps every day is... well, horrible. I keep telling myself that one day it'll be me, but the process of waiting for your turn is so so hard. Stay strong x

Celena · #4 November 24th, 2009, 04:53 PM

Lindsey

You know I felt and feel the same way like you do at times... I've had several friends and even a family member to have pregnancies & babies since we've been TTC and our losses.

The most recent, my friend had her babe just a couple days ago... I cried when I saw him. He's adorable, but it just made me think of.... well you can fill in the blank. It resurfaces the pain for me too

I'm sorry that you're having this on your mind and troubling your heart right now. Lindsey, I pray that it gets easier for you and your able to have peace of mind, heart & soul. (and mostly to get a well deserved bfp sooner than later!!!)

..Penelope.. · #5 November 24th, 2009, 04:56 PM

iVari · #6 November 24th, 2009, 05:15 PM

(((HUGS))) I hope your pain can ease soon and that your time for a sticky BFP is sooner than expected (((HUGS)))

ldovey83 · #7 November 24th, 2009, 07:05 PM

Thanks ladies.. I am just having one of those days.. Very moody and emotional.. I have been doing so good but as it gets closer and closer to my first EDD it has been harder and harder for me to be happy anymore.. I know one day I will be happy again, and hopefully it is sooner rather then later. Thanks again for listening.

Kary♥RN · #8 November 24th, 2009, 09:41 PM

HUGS! What you wrote was my story a year ago this month... I totaly understand! HUGS We are here when everyou need us... We understand! I think we all have had simular situations... HUGS

.:Shortcake:. · #9 November 25th, 2009, 07:13 AM

Hugs! I am so sorry I know how hard this is. I also have to deal with a very pregnant cousin tomorrow and she always asks when I'm going to have one....

Kking2824 · #10 November 25th, 2009, 07:53 AM

Im really sorry for you losses. I understand how you feel my best friend had her little boy a week ago and i didnt even want to go to the hospital because i was scared i was gonna break down and cry.

BabyLove23 · #11 November 25th, 2009, 09:35 AM

So sorry sweetie!! Hang in there!! Feel free to vent as much as needed :-)

Hope you get your BFP soon!!!

ldovey83 · #12 November 25th, 2009, 11:29 AM

Thnks ladies.. I am hoping to see a BFP Mon or Tues.. AF is due Mon and I might just wait till Tues. I have been feeling pregnant but I don't want to get my hopes up.. So far my symptoms are Fatigue I have had this since 5 DPo, lots and lots of cramping.. Really bad the last few days and at night, starting to pee more frequntly, started bloating yesterday, and some cases of mild nausea and real gassy.. i hope they are real and not IPS .. Wish me luck..

krystal g · #13 November 25th, 2009, 12:55 PM

Good luck! I hope you get a BFP.

missy123 · #14 November 25th, 2009, 01:50 PM

Hi Lindsey, I hope you get a BFP this cycle! As far as hurting, I COMPLETELY understand. I would have a hard time going and trying to enjoy her sucess when it just makes you feel more sad and more like a "failure". Many hugs and much love to you.

KimSieboldStudios · #15 November 26th, 2009, 05:13 AM

Hi, this is in response to your original question.. is this normal. Yes, it is. Many years ago, I lost my twin boys at 21 weeks along. At the same time, a girlfriend of mine was pregnant a few weeks less than I. It broke my heart and it made me feel so guilty for being jealous and I felt selfish. I tried to stay realistic and keep on the logical side of the situation... i knew she also felt the same too... it couldn't of been easy for her either. We never talked about it but i don't think we had to. The fact is it is completely understandable for you to have the feelings, totally normal and it is part of a grieving process. Keep chatting and getting the support from those that have gone through it.

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faysdt414 · #16 November 26th, 2009, 06:19 AM

its so normal and i think its good that your telling someone about those feeling! every time i find out someone is pg now and that they are due when i was suppose to be it is hard to be happy, but i do have to learn to be greatful for the things i do already have in life...

I hope your symptoms turn into a BFP!