[Celena]

I hope and pray he is healing well, that his fever went down and his BP is good within normal range. Hope that no news is good news.... update us when you're up for it!

[Kary♥RN]

Oh Celena.. your so sweet to think about me during your time of praying for DH 's uncle.

We this is has been a long week... I had to work on Tuesday into Wed... Called and checked in on Dad on tuesday.. Well he had a bowel movement.. which showed things were starting to "work"... The Doctor Removed the Tube that night.. and he was able to start having clear liquids.. They upgraded him to than have full liquids on Wed for Lunch and Dinner... I went down and was their on Wed with my parents. Thursday (Thanksgiving) Dad was than moved up to solid foods.. The Doctor said.. if you can hold down lunch you can go home.. (WE as a family decided to put off Thanksgiving to Saturday. Dad came home Thursday night. We went and saw DH parents, and Went over to see my parents.. Mom made chicken, stovetop, a can of Cranberry sauce, a little corn. (this just so happened this was the second day of Clomid... taking it in the mornings.. due to my work schedule) So after crying at my parents... since Thanksgiving was not what I had planned.. (other things happened.... I was tired, cranky, fought with my son, dh, on clomid, Should I go on???) I came home.. and started to make pumpkin pies for today (Sat) Well they went to sh-it! Wouldn't set... had them in the oven for dam near 2 hours... than I smell something burning.. I look in.. and the crusts are falling off..... It is 2 am Friday Morning, Well I just start bawling! I AM NOT A CRIER!!!IT TAKES A LOT TO MAKE ME CRY! I Don't LIKE CRYING! So Friday... I stay in my PJ's... still feel like I am going to break out in tears... I don't like me on Clomid.. I didn't see my dad on Friday... But I spent the day with my ENTIRE famliy... And listened while... got ALL the food ready... goo and gah over my niece... LET THE HITS KEEP ON COMING! And all I felt was this emptiness inside. Even as I held her (my niece) The emptiness overwhelmed me.. While yes she is cute, and I love her as my niece.... I want my baby girl, I want my baby... I want this year over.... So Dad is doing great, Me not so much.....

I think I will be feeling better when I get off this Clomid.. tomorrow is my last dose. So I will have my U/S on Thursday to check my follies... Hopefuly I will get some good news... But I'm not holding my breath... I can't hold it anymore..

[~InHisHands~]

Kary!!! I hope it's all worth it in the end!

[krystal g]

HUGS Kary. I'm really glad to hear your Dad is doing OK. And I'm sorry to hear the Clomid is making you crazy. But it will all be worth it when you get your BFP! And if it makes you feel any better...my pumpkin pies didn't set very well either...took them forever. And then my cat walked on them...little bitty kitty prints all over the top. So I scooped out around the prints and covered them with cool whip! LOL

[JessP]

Kary I am so glad your dad is doing better and at home. I hope that the clomid helps you get a BFP and you don't have to be on it long since you don't like it.

[..Penelope..]

Kary, I'm really glad that your dad is doing better, but I'm sorry that you're feeling so raw. Sending you huge

[Celena]

WOW, glad that he had such a great and quick recovery... at least enough to get to go home thursday! And even have a Thanksgiving reprise yesterday!

Kary, honey, I am sooooo sorry that clomid is being so rough on you! Hopefully it won't be something you will be on very long, which it seems it's only 1 week out of a month so THANK GOD it's not everyday! Did bcp mess with you as bad?

Being so emotionally out of control because of a medication is scarey, it's not very settling either gosh you know I wish that I could wave a magical wand to take all the frustrations, sadness & not fun stuff out of this journey for you... that you will be blessed with a cemented bean sooner than later! Pray that the ultrasound shows good news!!!

Glad that you've let it out here and told us how you are doing... you've been thru so much and have been so incrediably STRONG, WOMAN! We love ya and are always here for you babe!