[charlierays]

I really don't post much on JM at all...I hope you don't mind. I could use some encouragement. We suffered a very difficult loss at 9 weeks back in April...I would have been due on 11/18. DH and I have been trying for the last several months and something told me to test this morning. There is a super-faint barely-there line on Answer with fmu...i think i'm 12-13dpo...i would expect the line to be darker...grrrrr!

I am so incredibly frightened. Why can't i be "normal" and have a "normal" bfp and a "normal" experience. All I want is to give my son a sibling and justify all of our years of ttc/infertility/preg losses...then I promise that I won't put myself through this anymore...we will have our two children and we'll live happily ever after. I promise that with our second child we will feel complete and all will be perfect with our world. I promise!

We're praying so hard. I cannot take another loss.

Anyway, thanks for letting me vent, ladies!

[*MomofO&Nat*]

I know, it is just not fair sometimes. I feel like I bargain with God a lot lately, just give me that BFP and I will do anything! It does sound encouraging that you may be headed that way, try to have faith and keep your head up. By the way, I loved your blinkie about circ, formula, disposable diapers. Sounds like my son! I am glad I am not the only one out there

[Augie]

*hugs* I'm sorry for your losses. I hope you have a very healthy nine months. Please visit us on Pregnant After Recurrent Loss.

[Kary♥RN]

I hope this little bean was just a late implanter and that is why you have a light line! I am praying for you... I hope this is your BFP! Are you going to call the Dr? KUP! HUGS! T & P for you!

[mlyster]

I never get anything but a light line at 12-13dpo. Then it gets much darker after that. Test again in the morning and see what happens.

OH and I have found that even though its normal to have the most concentration in the AM i have gotten decent results with afternoon/evening testing too.

[charlierays]

I tested again this morning and its the same extremely faint line. Later when I went to the bathroom and wiped I had a small amount of brownish blood. I guess the line that I thought I saw wasn't really a line at all and just that horrible phantom ghost line (but i really thought it had color). What are the chances that this was IB at 13-14dpo??? Oh who am I kidding....its af on its ugly way....

[~InHisHands~]

I so know how you feel. It took us 3 & a half years just to get pg... all to have it end in a m/c! And now I still haven't been able to get pg after the m/c & have finally been referred to an RE. I have spent all this time, money & heartache... not to mention I could easily have another m/c. I'm so sorry... it's hard... it really is!!! Lean on the Lord though... He'll see you through!

[.:Shortcake:.]

Hugs. Don't give up hope yet.

[JessP]

You could totally be having IB at 13-14 dpo. That is super common and "normal" . I pray this is it for you and God and blessed your family. I am so sorry you are going through all of this. KUP we would love to know how you are doing and we are here for you if you need us.

[Celena]

There's NO TELLING what is going on hang in there!

My positive hpt's in the past were only 14dpo+ and even then they were always extremely faint! Some of us don't have early implanters and don't get a BFP early!!! I mean the most reliable time to test is the day after AF is due, that is well published out there especially so women don't have undue disappointment or stress from a - before a +. Fertility Friend suggests to wait until the day after... sometimes a week after if it doesn't have enough information about your cycles from charting.

So NO, you're not "UN-normal" you're as normal as they come!

But I so feel you, I wish I could be one of those ladies to get a bfp early... or just to get a healthy & cemented BFP! I can definitely relate with ya tho!