[Justjessie]

I found out I was pregnant on Oct 10. I wasn't even 4 weeks. I told EVERYONE. I pop fast, it was my third.

Lost the baby at 9 weeks, I was big...anyway I was due in mid June. (The 23rd based on my LMP but I O early so it would have been June 18.)

Today at work I found out another teacher is pregnant (I'm a teacher BTW.) I asked her when she was due and she looked at me funny and said "Mid June. How are you feeling?" I knew she felt bad telling me. And I feel so dumb. I remember telling her right before I lost the baby that I was due in mid June. SHE KNEW SHE WAS PREGNANT AND WASN'T TELLING PEOPLE!

So I feel dumb that I told people. Even though I was obvious and she just now has this cute little baby belly.

If I had to do it again...when I do it again...YOU BET I'M TELLING PEOPLE! LOL =) Most miscarriages are flukes, most people have a baby the next time...and I'd rather people know so they don't say anything stupid.

My son's dance teacher is also pregnant and due in mid June.

I am happy for them, I'm happy for anyone who has a baby...but every time I see one of them I think "My baby would have been that age." Or for now "I would have been that pregnant."

With everything going on with the house right now, I'm glad I'm not pregnant right now...I could NEVER heave dealt with moving and the stress (and DH busted his toe so I'm moving myself right now carrying everything). Besides, I was sleeping the SECOND I got home from work. Now, geez, I can't fall asleep because my brain won't shut off!!!

Just wanted to say I get sad =( Some people are like "See, it does get better!" Uh, NO, IT DOESN'T!!! Am I crying 24/7 anymore? No. But I don't think I'll ever not get the creeps when I think about what happened. Think about people who die...it scares me. I don't even know that many people who have died. One of them is MY KID. That bothers me so much.

Then you get "Well, it wasn't really a KID..." and "it didn't have feelings"

and I'm pro choice, believe me...but I believe she completely was her very own person and no one will ever see it because she wasn't born...but she was there.

I didn't tell anyone her name except for you guys...I don't even put it in my siggy so DH doesn't see it. But I think of little Amberlynne Nevaeh every night before I go to sleep.

And I think right now she is saying "I got out at a good time, that mommy lady was going to put me in a bad house!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" If she is anything like me she will laugh about it with me when I get to heaven =)

Oh I'm totally going to start my period SOON...I'm on Bee-yotch overdrive. Haven't been like this since my last period in Sept!!!!

[jjc99]

Angela...it's SOOO ok to have a bad day! Heck, have a couple! But it's good to see you still have your sense of humor and are clear-headed. Having this loss sucks. A lot. But, I know it'll happen for you. I just have a gut feeling about you.

And Amberlynne is looking over your shoulder and taking care of you and your family!!

[mommy x 10]

I know what you mean about it not getting better. Not a day goes by that I don't think about my baby and where I'd be in my pregnancy. I do handle it better but I still have days that I hurt like the day I found out...One of the things that really bothers me is that now I know that things don't always turn out ok. I mean I knew it before but you always hear stories about women who have bleeding and have very healthy babies and all kinds of other stories with happy endings and then you're in that posistion and hope and pray that you'll have a happy ending too but sometimes that doesn't happen, more than we like to think.

I think I'll be sharing the news too soon after we find out. We've never been one to keep it quiet! I hope we all get to share the news very soon!!!

[MeggysMommy]

I know the feeling of having so many people due around our due dates. I should have had my angel June 8th and now I've got 3 people alone due in June. Not to mention all the other pregnancies but still geez people. Its true about what they say about people who work at Safeway they work and BD ;P