[Celena]

If ever I have offended you even in the slightest, come off sounding a bad way, sound comparable, etc.... it has never ever been my intention ever to do so. I want nothing more than the best for everyone, I pray for each of you every night and tho I'm in a dark spot in my life I try to be a positive light for everyone else. I like to help people, that is why I gladly became a co-host of TTCAL. I realize that support means something different for everyone and what might work or be right for one isn't for another... tho I try to "feel out" what someone might need, I darn sure don't always get it right. I'm human, thank God for erasers because Lord knows I've made mistakes just as the next person.

I know it takes *all kinds* from all different walks of life. If you knew me in real life, you'd know that this is something I whole heartedly know and that I'm a kind hearted, wear my heart on my sleve type of a person. To me this is not a weakness, but a strength... so in typed words there's no way to even know me as a whole. But if you did, if you met me or even talked with me over the phone quiet frequently you would be able to get to know me better than only on JM. I'm as real on here as I am in real life, there's nothing I'd change to say on here that I'd say to you in real life. (well omitting cuss words on here, but that's about it.)

Just like anyone else, even tho I may be a co-host.... I'm human just like any of you too. I have a life with a bigger picture than I show any of you in on. I think we all hold back as a means of self preservation and not to leave ourselves open and vulnerable... however this can be taken for granted sometimes and be misconstrued. I've learned that perhaps even tho I have the purest of intetrests at heart that others may not, that I'm naive. (and I'm saying this in the perspective as you, me, anyone on an online forum / web based community... all sort of strangers really)

And with being said for what I've apoloigized for.... I have found that this has happened to me also, but I usually am having a hypersensitive day and realize that none of you ever mean anything in a bad way. This journey is extremely hard on everyone, some take it harder than others, some have much more strength and a more optimistic attitude / view because we're all so different. Even tho we've each gone thru at least one loss, it's a heavy burden on our hearts... but I do not think my journey is any worse than another's. It's not a compition, period.

So, ok, I think I've put a little more into this than I intended and before I say too much and make it too long.... from deep within my heart and my soul, I am apologizing for if I have ever offended you.

Thank you for taking the time to read this in it's entirety

ok, going to hit submit and hope this is taken with love!

[~Lynda~]

i'm lost, but that's not unusual!!! hugs girl!!!

[noworries]

Celena, for the record, I think you are awesome and I think your loving heart very much comes across on the board.

[meh]

Oh Celena, it sounds as thought things have gone from bad to pear shaped! For the record, you've never offended me in the slightest. We're all just trying to manage the best way we can, and we're all different so it stands to reason we'd all manage in different ways. (((hugs))) Take care.

[krystal g]

I'm not sure what's going on Celena, but you've never been anything but loving and supportive to me. I think you are always an inspiration and the positive light that we've all needed on our dark days. Everyone's different, everyone handles things differently, but I think most of us would agree that you've always had the best intentions. **hugs**

[.:Shortcake:.]

Celena I love you girl! You have been nothing but supportive of me and everyone else from where I see it. And I don't think we thank you enough.

[JesSsica]

That was very sweet and from the heart. I totally understand. People handle losses and pain in very different ways.

Some people hurt and cry for a very long time. Other people try to pick themselves up and kill things with humor to try to make light of a very heavy situation-- covering up for their own broken heart just trying to be strong.

I'm sure everyone here has nothing but great intentions-- I'm so sorry if something upset you. {{hugs}}

[momof6lopez]

Your joking right? You are the most supportive person here on JM, period. Your post was very heart felt, and very supportive, yet again. I cannot imagine any member not feeling what so many of us feel from you. You are a REAL person here as well IRL, im sure. that is the way your posts come across every time, without a doubt.

Miss you, pm me if you would like

[zkat]

Celena, like the others, I have no idea what this post pertains to, but I will send you a huge hug, say Thank you for being my friend and I hope you work through it with whomever very soon.

Kat.

[iVari]

Celena, I've only been here for a couple of months, but you have become someone I look up to. I get so much love and sincerity from everything you post. I have never taken a post you made the wrong way (towards me or anyone else). Thank you for all you and Kary do around here for us all (((HUGS)))

[Kary♥RN]

I think calls for a

[~InHisHands~]

[*MomofO&Nat*]

C,
My cycle buddy! I agree with everyone above, I have no idea what is going on but I have only felt support from you, even when we both are having a very bad day. Please don't leave us, I look forward to your posts and your upbeat attitude in posts and in chat. Sometimes, checking the board is the only thing that makes me feel better when I am so down. Thank you for all you do for us, HUGS!!

[Justjessie]

I agree with everyone else...you've been great!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[farasha]

Ditto what Kary said! Group hug!!! Celena, I think you are super sweet. I don't know what happened, but we all have our moments. This is a hard road to travel. But you're not alone and we love you!

[JessP]

[KDD]

Originally Posted by ~Lynda~

i'm lost, but that's not unusual!!! hugs girl!!!

[jjc99]

Celena, I haven't been here long, at all. But you were one of the first to welcome me with open arms and gave me the love and support when I needed it most. I think you're a great woman! Like someone else said, we don't think you and Kary enough...so, Thank you!!! Keep on rockin' girl!

[Trish36]

Celina...maybe someone on this board know what you are referring to but as far as I'm concerned you have nothing to apoligize for! HUGS!!!! I know you've had a rough time lately and like you said some of us cope better than others. You are not superwoman and no one expects you to be. For me you've always been a 'pick me up' whenever I needed it. You and Kary are awesome as co-hosts!! I wish that 2010 brings you tons of happiness and your heart's desire!

[missy123]

I am not sure what is going on here..... but it is ok for all of us to have bad days and say the wrong things. Darn, we are human... This is a message board where everyone is supposed to be "loving and nice and supportive" and ya know what if you got us all in a room in real life I bet there would be arguments and disagreements and cursing along with the love and friendship.

Celena - you are fine... sometimes you are overemotional but the upside is so great... you make me laugh and are probably one of the few people on this board that really show their true self.

To sum it up: We are all human and make mistakes and it is ok