[dancefever]

There's a possibility that I could be getting my Christmas BFP like I wanted. But, now I'm having mixed feelings about it because between the engagement and discovering my new favorite winter drink (hot chocolate and tequila rose, haha) I've been doing my fair share of drinking. It's been at least a few a week, which is more then normal for me. I was also sick for awhile (which was a symptom for me the first and only time I was pg and ended up miscarrying) and I was thinking it was very unlikely at the time that I'd be pregnant again so I took meds because I just couldn't deal with the sickness anymore and tylenol wasn't cutting it. And now I'm worried.

With my one and only pregnancy having had resulted in a miscarriage last time, I don't want to do anything to jeprodize that the next time around but I feel like if this was my month, I've already ruined my chances of it being a happy and healthy nine months and I'm just feeling really horrible.

AF would be due on Tuesday the 22nd and there's no sign of her showing up. Usually I get achy cramps at least a few days before hand and none so far. UGH. I'm just freaking myself out.

Someone tell me it will be okay

I have to say, if I do get my BFP this month, I'm going to be thrilled but at the same time, it will be bitter sweet because I'm going to be paranoid for quite some time I'm sure...

[Kary♥RN]

Thousands of women..... everyday find out they are pregnant... and have taken meds, drank.. and done more horriable things.... and they go on to have healthy pregnancies and babies... I wouldn't worry until you have something to worry about.. If you do get your BFP (I hope you do)... you will have enough anxiety do to your history of loss.. try to stay calm.. and when it happens... try to enjoy it!

[zkat]

I agree with Kary. My sister was at least 6 weeks pregnant with her son when she found out and she was in college - promise you she wasn't living the nun life. He is a very smart, healthy boy now.

If you are pregnant, chances are you are not even sharing blood with the baby yet, so please don't stress yourself out over the meds and alcohol.

Good luck to you! Keep us posted

[dancefever]

Thanks ladies. That makes me feel better. And DF says the same thing, that it's probably too early to have any effect on the baby and that plenty of women have done the same thing without knowing and gone on to have healthy, happy babies.

I'm just queen of paranoia I guess.

[ldovey83]

Ditto what the other ladies say.. I will be testing around Christmas too so good luck!!

[alethia]

Ditto with what the other ladies said - don't stress about it. Good luck testing!