I started to post to you earlier before I went to work, but erased it because I didn't have a whole bunch of time to put into really responding to you. IYKWIM?
Taking the leap of faith is a very positive approach and I very much admire you for this. That is extremely powerful decision, one that can only bring you blessings. God is great and greatness... in this TTCAL journey to let go and let God is hard to do, perhaps when we're not at the right spot to if that makes sense? I guess we have to get to that point where we let go, then let God take over the plan (which He had the whole time) A friend of mine said being his children and physical beings we tend to let our "ego" get in the way of accepting and putting entire faith in Him (with situations, beliefs, destiny, etc) It's a battle that even the most Christian of Christians struggles with she explained to me... that we tend to try to take responsibility, the weight of the world on our shoulders when we really need to just give it God that it's His world to carry the weight of. His strength is immersureable.
I hope I'm not rambling too much, you really are an angel tho... inspiring!
Words are escaping my mind,

I'm very happy for you and pray that it's in God's plan to bless you with that stickiest bean sooner than later