[dansyl]

Now that I am calmer I can tell you ladies my story...I have PCOS and only have a few periods a year. We had been trying for 6 months to get pregnant. I finally had a period in October and then got pregnant 6 weeks later. I went in to my OB because I was having cramps and light brown spotting. I was 6 weeks pregnant. She saw nothing but a gestational sac. So that day I had my HCG levels drawn... 1349. Two days later... 1844. She thought the pregnancy was failing. A week after my first US we got to see the baby and a heartbeat. Two hours after the US I started spotting red blood. I was scared but I thought it might be just from the US. The next day at work I was cramping really bad and bleeding. Still not enough blood to make me freak out. The next day DH and I went to my mom's for her birthday. I was cramping pretty bad all morning and as soon as we got there... I went to the bathroom and started passing clots. We went to lunch and the DH took me home and to the ER. They told me I had a complete miscarriage. I was in pain... but not enough to need anything for it. The next morning the bleeding had calmed down a lot but I was in so much pain I fell to my knees as soon as I stood up. DH took me back to the ER because the pain was morning than I could handle. They gave me Bentyl to stop the contractions and Ultram for pain. I got to go home on pain meds and was fine last night until I went to bed. I was up all night with cramps, but not as bad as earlier that day. I passed a little more blood and now I feel much better. This has been such a roller coster ride. Up and down, up and down. I'm just glad I know for sure now. The emotional pain is so much greater than the physical pain I had.. even though the physical pain was crippling. The only thing that is keeping me going is knowing that soon I will get to try again. I wanted this so bad... and I'm too determined to give up...

[Kary♥RN]

HUGS Kara.... I am so sorry you have had to go through this. This is the hardest thing to go through... HUGS

[~InHisHands~]

[Celena]

Kara

Honey I'm sorry you're going thru such a horribly painful loss. I think coming here might help you as it did myself (and so many others) Hope that you're feeling better today even if it's a little bit... knowing that we're all here to support to you and offer advice, our experiences & anything we can to help you get thru some of the pain you're feeling from your loss.

How are you holding up today Kara?