From now on, when TTC I want it to be about me and DF enjoying each other.. sorry if that sounds eugh. But for the past few months, I've spend my time with my head in the laptop researching the best days to DTD, obsessing about symptoms, Googling if it's possible to get a BFP at 8dpo etc... I need to take control, and let go a little bit (that doesn't make a lot of sense!).. I need to try to get out of my head what cycle day I'm on. I mean, I will be aware but before, it was totally taking over.
I need to make more time for the family I DO have.
No more testing before AF is due!! No more internet cheapie tests... FRER's only - then I'll be less inclined to waste them on BFN's.. No more obsessing over symptoms.
I need to cut down on using the internet during the 2WW and occupy my time with nice things, days out, baking with my little boy, watching movies with DF all curled up.
I've decided, I would love an October baby... October is a good month for us, it's the month we met, the month we were first "together"

and 2 years later, in October, we moved in together.
But I've got to go with the flow, the past few months have proved you gain nothing from getting obsessive.
Deep.... breaths....