[kitkat8323]

My due date is quickly approaching (April 15th) i was expecting to be preggers by now and im not and dont understand why? it only took us two months last time and here i am 5 months and no baby i should be 29 weeks right now preparing from my baby to come instead i take care of other peoples babies all day long wondering why i couldnt keep mine and what i did wrong (trust me i enjoy every minute of holding these babies and taking care of them but its really really hard.)

i made the big mistake on monday of looking at my old ddc i only went to where they posted the angels cause i thought it was safe but i forgot that the ladies posted there m/cs before they got preggers with the ones they were due with in april and i saw a siggy of all the 3d u/s of the april babies and bellies and lost it i bawled for 3 hours. ive been crying over everything i was cooking the other night and lost it cause i cooked the chicken a little to long if im like this and my dd isnt till april how am i gonna make it through that day i just feel like giving up and im never gonna have a baby in my arms and im tired of crying all the time ive never been a girl that cries at all now thats all i do

[ma2b2010]

**HUGS** I'm so sorry.. although my due date isn't til July, I'm supposed to be 15 weeks pregnant with my first. Hell, I'm getting sad right now just thinking about how big my belly would be by now, and waiting for the ultrasound to find out the sex... but anyway, I'm sorry for your loss and the pain you are going through. We are all in this together and we will be pregnant again soon!

[ldovey83]

Hun I totally understand how you feel. My first EDD just passed Jan 22nd and I was hoping to be pregnant by then.. I did good that day cause I was feeling preggers and in the 2WW so I got by but when AF showed up on the 24th I cried.... It has been rough.. My second loss my EDD was April 12th.. i remember you from there... It is hard.. You just have to take one day at a time.. I hope that you have good news to share before April and that it really helps.. I find myself going back to the DDC myself and it is hard... I had a neighbor move in and her Due date is 2 days before my April due date and she talks about it all the time and i just want to bawl.. I offer you internet hugs and I will pray for you that you have comfort.... HUGS!!!

[Kary♥RN]

{{HUGS}}, I can say I have been through two EDD so far... and the time leading up to both of them were worse than the day itself... It was the anticipation... On the first EDD I was not Pregnant.... It was hard since my SIL babyshower was that week.. and My mom gave me the guilt trip about not going.. so I had to atleast show up... made it less than an hour, and sat out side.... 3/4 of that hour. On my second EDD.. I was "pregnant"... I had HCG in my system.. but was m/c at that time... so I was already a mess... having my third loss on my EDD.... But it was just another day... I cried.. like any other day, I missed my baby just like anyother day... the date on the calendar didn't make it any better or worse.. I ached the day before, the of, and the day after.. all same.... {{HUGS}}

[.:Shortcake:.]

Hugs! On my EDD DH and I went away. He also bought me a necklace that says mommy to an angel and went left balloons go for our son. I honestly think leading up to the day was worse than the actual day.

[JesSsica]

We all grieve in different ways. If you feel like crying, you need to cry. It's better than bottling it up. You need to feel your emotions. Don't blame yourself either. Things happen-- sometimes not good things, but they happen. You're not to blame.

Sometimes when I feel sorry for myself I go to the due date board for my first pregnancy. Right now they are between 23 and 27 weeks along. At first I'm excited for everyone to see how great they're doing. Soon I make my way to the belly pics and the u/s pics and the "It's a......" posts after finding out the sex of their baby. I get emotional.

I feel my emotions and then I get up from the computer and I move on. I have no idea why I torture myself like this. Maybe it's curiosity. Maybe it's just keeping tabs on what could have been. I have no idea.

I'm so sorry that you're sad...

[SkyBaby]

I'm having a horrible several weeks too, you're not the only one. I haven't been to look at my old ddc since. I can't. I wont. I understand why you're feeling how you're feeling. A good friend at work just found out she's expecting. She wont stop talking about it. I mentioned I am supposed to be around 30 weeks now but lost my baby. She got a sad look on her face then continued talking about hers.

I completely understand why you're sad.. I feel the same way.