[brandimomof2]

I am feeling so down right now. I just feel like this is never going to happen for us. It seems like such a huge journey and I have no idea what is going on with my body. I thought AF was finally coming but now I am not sure. I have not had anything thing else today except that tiny bit of pink spotting.
I just feel like something may be wrong with me now. I dont know what but I just think things sometimes. I just want to get my BFP. This has been a 2 yr journey including the MC I had. Does anyone feel like its never going to happen sometimes?

I really want to get further testing done but my Dr wont since I did have a pregnancy in there even though it ended in m/c. Even if he would do testing my insurance probably would not cover any type of fertility testing.

I am so trying to lose 20 lbs right now and its just so hard. I just want to eat because I am depressed and then I have a lot of other stress going on. My sister and her daughter are living with us right now.

[mafiamom]

i am so sorry. i wish i had some wonderful words of wisdom that makes it all better.... but alas - i dont.

i will say that working out has helped me alot. it makes me feel as if i have some sort of control over my body and it encourages me to think i am getting healthier for the next time i get pregnant.

hugs.

[Kary♥RN]

HUGS!!!! I am with you on so many levels.... HUGS!!!! I feel the same way... I am month 19..... with three losses..... This is the first month in a long, long, long, time.. I feel the tinest bit ok, on the postitive side... Not hopefull... but OK. DO I think this will be our month?? I could hope, but hopeful.. month after month, failed pregnancy after failed pregnancy.... Hopeful is not what I am.....