[Celena]

an appointment to see why I've miscarriage so much in the past 7 months, to do more extensive blood work for clotting factors and more!

F I N A L L Y ! ! ! !

I'm also scheduling an appointment with my rheumatologist to do more extensive testing before then and take those results to the peri appt.

My beta is down right at / below 2000, no wonder why when I poas yesterday the urine had just barely hit the testing area and came up blazing +. I really thought after passing my baby on the 8th @ 8wks3ds my levels would have dropped WAAAAY more. I guess it's progress right? I feel like it's going to take forever and we're not going to be TTC again any time soon At first I didn't want to at all and now I don't want to keep waiting forever or it's going to be 2011 before we have a baby. Lost my September baby.... Already out for October 2010 baby, November? December? Let me stop getting into a pity party. So ANYways, thank GOD they're going to do something to see why and while I'm relieved that they are, my fears are much of the same of those before me "will they find something" "what will they find?" "what if they don't find anything?" and so the march continues... so for now, no TTC for us, we're still biologically pregnant even tho I no longer have my baby inside of me.

[momof6lopez]

Celena, Im so happy your getting this work up done. I wish your levels would of gone down more too, but it is big progess........tubals take longer to get back to zero because even though you lost your lo, the tube will reabsorb the rest wich takes a bit more time.......I cannot wait for your blood work to get done! This is all being coordinated with the Peri? Not the OBGYN or RE? I did not know they would do this type of testing, but sounds like they are definitely the right people! Praying for a quick fix, an easy one I mean, and that your Nov or Dec bfp follows right behind.

[mafiamom]

i am so very glad you are able to get the testing so you will finally have some answers. i pray that these answers will get you well on your way to a sticky healthy bean!

i absolutely hate the purgatory of still testing + even tho you arent pregnant anymore. it is cruel, and a very hard time and i hope it passes very very quickly for you.

[SkyBaby]

Oh Celena.. I'm relieved but still very sad for you.. I'm happy your doctors will finally figure out what's going on.

[Kary♥RN]

Oh Celena.... HUGS.. While yes it is progressing.... I know how frustrating it is waiting on levels to go down....... HUGS... I hope you get answers... at the appt... KUP! HUGS......

[ldovey83]

Hey hun... I totally know how you feel.. When I had the methotrexate injections back in Sept I felt like it wasn't going down fast enough either.. It took a month and a half for my levels to finally hit zero and to stop the spotting completely. I hope it goes down much faster for you then it did me.. Just hang in there.. I totally know how you feel about not getting pregnant and thinking that it is going to push into 2011.. Just stay positive.. Keep your head up.. I know it is easier said then done cause I am going through my issues right now, but hey I know God has a plan and it will happen.. I am finding comfort in that.

[LisaG825]

I hope the drs. are able to find something for you. It sucks not knowing. We are in the same vote b/c I am still waiting for my hcg to drop to neg. too! Are they giving you anymore injections?

[Celena]

Lisa.... no as long as I have a nice drop at my next appt when they're going to do all the other blood work. What are your doc's saying about your levels are they going to do more too?

Lindsey... I think your levels were so much higher than mine, tens of thousands right? They seemed to drop allot because of that (to me then), but I know and do remember it did take a while for you. It was heartbreaking to hear... you're a strong lady tho! It would be nice to graduate together and in 2010!

Kary.... thanks hon, hugs back at cha dollface! You hang in there and try not to stress!!!! When do you go back to the doc?

I'll make it thru... might be p!ssed off, sad and mixed emotions for a while, while my body normalizes I guess but we'll TTC in the future. Praying that like so many graduates we get to hold our little miracle baby too.

Kira.... thanks lady! I appreciate your hearts, thoughts & prayers... y'all are so awesome!!! Sorry you're having a rough time lately too... we'll all get thru it because we have to right? We don't have a choice but to gather the strength and keep on keeping on.

Colleen... since I found out my baby was residing in my left tube I made myself stop buying preggo tests because I felt it was futile at that point since I couldn't keep my baby. It was devastating to know they had to make me loose it or else... My husband asked me what made me take the test yesterday and I told him to see if it would be negative, where I was at. He said he doesn't understand why but that he knew I knew far more than he did on all things baby & fertility. Left it at that.

Lori... I love ya momma and thank you. Sure fricken hope this is the ticket, either way if there is something then I hope it's simple addition or change... if it's nothing then I'll feel ok, accepting that unfortunately I've had some oddly horrible (for lack of a better word) luck. Altho I'm sure after the testing and it were to come back, I might be singing a different tune then... uh, I could try to be optimistic now tho eh?

I go to a perinatologist for my dr... they have many different dept's there thru their office and they do allot of genetic specializing. Couple of the head Dr's there (the 2 I see) are professors at the medical college, which I sort of find mind easing in a way since they have to actively use their knowledge on a daily basis. They have to also supervise at the hospital the attending, residents & students learn/practice at.

[LisaG825]

I got my second shot yesterday. They upped my dosage to 75mg. I felt nauseous last night and a little today. My level was 188 when they checked it on Wed. That was 8weeks after they induced me. I guess they are going to keep giving me the shots til I hit neg. so no telling how many I will need. I asked the nurse how many they usually give before switching to ACT-D and she said that they have never had to give more than 3 shots of the methotrexate in their office. I guess no one in their office needed ACT-D. My luck I will probably need it.

I really hope they find stuff out for you. Sometimes it seems like some women just need a little something to fix what is going on. Like a simple med. I know what you mean about being nervous about results though. I am but then I am not looking forward to going to the genetics counselor on Monday!