[*Maddie&Jacobs*Mommy*]

I started my first period after my m/c over the weekend. My body seems to have gotten back on track, this was a 30 day cycle (counting the day I started bleeding from the m/c as CD1). 30 days has been my normal since having Maddie, so I know that is good...
However, I was really hoping for a BFP this month. I knew the chances of that happening were slim, but my midwife seemed optimistic, so I was too I guess. It just feels like I have lost the baby all over again... which I know I didn't, but still....
I'm just feeling so down in the dumps. I didn't expect it to be this hard after I had come to terms with the loss...

Ok, enough with my pitty party Moving on to this cycle

[mafiamom]

i can imagine it WOULD be hard to see AF if you were trying right after a m/c. i am sorry it didnt work out, but i am very thankful your body is back on track so quickly and you can try again this month!!!

GL and break an egg

[Natalie_Snow]

I am sorry it didn't happen. This is my 3rd cycle after m/c and i was certain I was PG... my AF was 1 day late and when she showed, I felt like I was having a m/c...

good luck in TTCAL!! I hope you see your BFP next month! catch that egg!

[ldovey83]

HUGS hun we all know the feeling.. I cry everytime since my losses that AF shows up.. I try to prepare myself every month but when she shows my emotions and longing for another baby take over and I just need to cry and get it out of my system.. This is cycle number 5 since my second loss and I wish I could say that it gets easier but it dosen't. Not when you want it so bad.. Hang in there hun.. VEnt away it always helps me..

[Kary♥RN]

HUGS... My first AF after my m/c's... are always the worst... Not that ever seeing those BFN... and than AF is every easy... But... that first one... you just to be pregnant again You want to be that woman who gets her BFP after a M/c.... I have yet to be that woman... and she showing is like a kick in the gut.. {{{HUGS}}}

[Celena]

it is so disappointing as much as you just *wish, hope, dream* to get a bfp before you ever get AF.... then to see that bleeding again is like insult to injury all over again. It's never easy... I guess for some you look forward to it knowing your body is getting back on track and can finally count CD1 post-loss, but at the same time it's bitter.

I'm sure AF's hormonal fluctuation are not helping you feel any better, but hang in there... they say the first few months after m/c can be more fertile. So perhaps within the next few months you'll get that BFP you want so much After AF leaves you'll feel a little better, maybe not 110% but at least a little

[ohnicole]

We also tried the first cycle after my m/c. For some reason I had convinced myself that cycle that we were going to get a BFP... and when we didn't it was awful. I was really down until AF left.

After that, though, I started to feel a little better about being able to move forward. I hope the same happens for you. Hugs!