[Celena]

Ok I have a little challenge here for each of you to... let's bring EVERYONE out and encourgage other's who may be reading but not posting much to get active on our TTCAL board!

Post some details about your journey thru your loss(es), getting back on the TTC bandwagon & your journey while TTCAL here that you would suggest to someone who is just now going thru their first loss and is about to or considering TTCAL .

What is some of the best advice you could give thru all of your experience and experiences that you wish you'd of known then what you know now? What about with doctors? Or medications? and on your journey TTC? What about finding out about disorders that effect TTC?

Elaborate as much as little or as much you'd like... remember there's someone out here with pretty similar or just like you who could absolutely appreciate all of your help, support, advice & experiences!

[JesSsica]

I'll start... I'm Jessica and I came here after I lost my surprise pregnancy. My dh and I have only been married since May and my pregnancy was a total surprise. We had barely begun to adjust to the thought of life with baby when we went to our first u/s at 12 weeks and found out we had lost the baby.

I had such a huge range of emotions. I have two kids but this was my dh's first. This was HIS baby and I was devastated that something happened to his very first little baby. I was mad and sad and disgusted with myself. I knew I had done everything in my power "right", thank goodness, but I still questioned everything.

I came here because even though we weren't TTC for that pregnancy, we decided we wanted to try again. It was so nice to come here and be around ladies who understand. I then got pregnant after my first post-D&C period only to lose that baby too-- a chemical pregnancy but earlier than the prior loss.

I was devastated again. Again it was nice to be surrounded with ladies who can not only offer a listening ear but ladies who can all empathize. I encourage anyone to come out of lurking and join in. It's helped me immensely. On the sad days I vent, on the happy days in the 2WW I get lots of excitement and encouragement.

I've really liked it here... even though I'm still sad that I had to come here at all in the first place as every one of us feels.

[missy123]

I just want to say to all those lurking.... come out and join us. Don't be afraid... The girls here have some of the warmest hearts on the planet and while we do clash and fight at times we are "family". Don't deny yourself the chance to make some great friends and get some support that you want. There is nothing you can say that we have not said ourselves... we understand. We have been where you are and welcome you to join us.

[BeccaM]

Im Rebecca and I joined this group within the last few weeks after losing our first.

A little about me... I have always have menstruation issues from my early teens. I would go for months and nothing. About 2 years ago I began a period and could not stop for about 2 months straight. I actually ended up have a D/C for medical reasons, so I can relate a little with the procedure in general. Since then I had been taking BCP up until 8/09. At that time we decided it was time to start trying. Also, I am obese. Have been most of my life. Before we TTC I lost about 150lbs. I still have a long ways to go and I know it can cause fertility issues but Im here so Im not sure its affecting mine. . Im always looking for other ladies that are also plus size and TTC or TTCAL. Ok..so on our 6th month of trying we got our BFP. At about 7 weeks I started spotting and then it got heavier. I had an appointment and they said the baby was measuring about a week behind but there was a heartbeat.. However the heartbeat was only 80bpm. Later that week we lost our lil walnut. I was heartbroken. I still have my days when it is very hard to get out of bed. I cry to myself in the shower getting ready for work.. Some days I wonder what I did wrong or what can I do differently next time. I work for a Pediatrician and it is so hard some days when the newborns come in or I hear co-workers talking about their lil ones (Im the only one at the practice with no kids). I find lots of comfort on this board knowing so many women have and or are going thru what Im going thru. This is such a wonderful board.. Noone is judgemental, everyone is supportive and very caring. We also have great hosts/co-hosts that are always willing/offering to lend an ear when needed.. I tend to lurk at times but trying to post more and more and encourage everyone to join in.

Sorry for rambling... I think its about time for bed!

[ldovey83]

My name is Lindsey. I first joined this group back in May 09 when I lost my little angel.... I got back in the swing of ttc and within a month got my second BFP.. I was going to post in the grad section but shortly after I found out I lost that one too.. This board was so supportive of me that when I came back here I found a post that Missy had wrote that said she had read that I lost my second angel and needed everyone's support and I had so many replies with hugs and kind words.. It ment alot to me.. My emotions through this whole situation have varied.. There are times when I am happy and times when it gets rough and I just have to get on here and poor my heart out and get it off my chest.. It is really great to come to a place where everyone understands what I am feeling and I don't get comments that aren't needed or hurtful... So here I am and stay until God blesses us with a sticky bean, and I will probably stay cautiously until I pass my loss markers.. I love all you ladies and I don't know what I would do without you.

[EJsMommy]

My name is Lovisa. I recently joined in about 1.5 - 2 months ago. My husband and I had TTC for about 5 yrs for our first prior to me finding an OB that understood our situation. We tried naturally for about 2 months more with no result to show for it. After that I have HSG (Hetero salpingo gram) where they found out that I have two uterus (there is a term for it that I do not remember that this time). That made me O that same day as they put a contrast fluid up into my uterus and it flushed it out. Then we missed that cycle as well. But the doctor had ordered me to call if AF showed up so that I could be prescribed 50mg of Clomid (or a type thereof) to take for 5 days starting on the 3rd day of that cycle. We go a BFP on July 3rd, 2009. All seem to go so well but on October 7th the u/s tech found that the baby was measureing behind. We got an appointment with a fetal maternal specialist and went in the following week October 14th. The doc mentioned that there some concern areas that she found that may point to birth defects or chromosomal problems. We decided on doc advise to have a ammnio syntesis done to make sure there were no chromosomal defects with our baby. That procedure was necessary but not fun at all. They promised to get back to us in 2 days for the rapid (express) results. I called their office and they just received the answer and all came back normal (no defects what so ever). It was huge burden that lifted from my heart that day but that did not last very long. On October 30th we found out that our baby EJ had lost his battle to stay alive. It was such an earie feeling to see him on the u/s screen without movements. As I was in the second trimester I had to do a vaginal delivery. The OB doc scheduled a day and time for me to go to L&D. Nov 4th we arrived at the hospital and I got registered at the early time of 7.15 or so. 7.30am I was up (with DH) in L&D. Dressed into a gown. The OB inserted pills for inducing labor (don't want to be to descriptive there- I am sure you get my point). This was about 8am then at lunch time around 12.30pm a double dose of the same pills were put there again. At 4.50pm our angel was born. So tiny and so beautiful even if he was born sleeping.

We started TTC naturally after my first full cycle that started 5w1d after my delivery. No BFP yet but we are not giving up.

This board has helped me tremendously and the ladies here have welcomed me with open arms and they have been so supportive. For you who lurk around here take a chance and join us - you will be so thankful you did. I am certain that you may not find a better group of positive, friendly, supportive and understanding ladies than here. What you may have gone or going through right now this is the place for support hands down.

[ohnicole]

My name is Nicole. I was lurker on this board from shortly after my loss in September. I just started posting in the last month, mostly because my sister had a pretty bad stroke and I moved temporarily back home to support her. This means I am away from DH and my friends, and the ladies here have really helped to fill a gap for me. I can vent here, and get support that I'm not getting while I'm out of town.

DH and I got married last May. We got our BFP in July, on our third month of TTC. We saw a normal heartbeat at 7 weeks, but found out at 12 weeks that the baby had stopped growing at 8w6d. I had a D&C a couple days later. It was such a hard time for us, especially because one of my BF's was 38 weeks pregnant at the time. She had her baby 1 week to the day after my D&C, and I went to visit her. She was on the same floor of the same hospital where I had my D&C. It was so hard, and I felt soooo guilty for not being excited for my BF at such a great time for her.

We started TTC right away. We were going to wait for 1 cycle, but my 1st post-D&C cycle turned out to be 70 days, and I wasn't that patient. My cycles have been kind of crazy since the loss, irregular and all longer than 40 days. I have also been diagnosed with a clotting disorder and will most likely be on Lovenox injections after our next BFP.

TTCAL is a hard thing to deal with, but it's really comforting to know I'm not alone and there are other ladies understand how tough it is (although I wish none of us had to be here).

[DukesMommy12]

The TTCAL board is the only place where I really dont feel like Im alone in this. I wasnt planning on getting pregnant. (Actually I was on BC.) But when I was hubby and I were THRILLED! And we were crushed when we lost our child. I know people tried to understand, but its hard. I dont think my husband even fully comprehends how hard it is to have a child inside you and then just lose it. But honestly everyone here knows, I dont feel so alone and helpless when I have all of the other women here to talk to, to laugh with, and to cry with. This board really has helped me to keep (whats left) of my sanity.. Ive really been able to give my m/c up to God, and just keep trying because of the encouragement I recieved from everyone here. I highly recommend being active on this board, its a wondeful way to heal.

[Isabelle]

I'm sad I'm here.
I'm glad I'm here.
It's good to read that I'm not alone.
'Nuff said

[mafiamom]

please come out and join us! you will be so very glad you did

[Celena]

Hello

I'm Celena, 33yrs old & DH Andre is going to be 32yr. DH was bitten by the baby fever years before I had gotten my IUD out... we first started trying in April 2008.

We went 15 cycles before getting pregnant the 1st time... which had ended in a loss @ 6wks 3ds. We didn't wait before trying to concieve again and we got pg right away which became a loss (long story) So I would suggest to wait at least 1 cycle until you get your first AF post-loss before TTC again. Give your body time to heal, uterus sloff off and rebuild it's lining also to have an exact date of LMP to go by.

After both of my losses this summer I then decided to start temping/charting along with using OPK's to determine and keep track of my cycles. I found that it is the ONE thing I can control since I cannot control my body. It took about 6 months / cycles and we got pregnant on Christmas Day! Found out Jan 7th... ended up finding out the end of the month something was wrong and eventually after 5 u/s's later we had a little bean growing in my tube. I had to be treated with methotrexate to stop beans growth and prevent my tube rupturing, hemorrahging... initially bean continued to grow, but did end up losing @ 8wks3ds. So right now we're still going thru bleeding and no idea of ovulation. Getting testing done 3/3 and I have ordered a CBE fertility monitor to give a try after tests come back.

will finish later...