[ohnicole]

All of the sudden I realized that my EDD is March 31, and it will be here in less than a month. I struggled after my m/c for several months, but I really started feeling like I was starting to accept it and move forward in December/January. Now I feel like I am getting into a funk again.

This afternoon a friend of my sister brought her 1 year old daughter to visit with my sister at her rehab facility, and she was so cute. The whole time I was just feeling really sad. I was supposed to have my baby soon, and now the reality is that I might not even be able to commit to TTC for a whole year (because I want to support my sister and that is throwing off my and DH's plans for finishing graduate school and moving to a new town). I just feel sad and angry all over again, and I really hate when I am feeling sorry for myself. I would much rather take control of a bad situation and move forward, but the truth is there is no control in TTC (or I guess in a lot of aspects of life).

I am temporarily back home with my sister, so I am not even with my DH. Everything that's going on with me right now just kind of stinks, and it's really getting to me. I hate feeling this way

[Celena]

Nicole I know how you feel honey, my EDD is close to yours as well, the 23rd of march... and what you mean about supposed to be hugely pregnant, in the final count down. My DH's BF's wife has the exact same edd as I did. GRR!

Anyways, sorry honey it's NOT easy as much as we'd like to convince ourselves that we're doing ok and can handle it when that date gets dangerously close we start to melt down... especially if we start seeing newborns, little ones and hugely preg ladies reminding us of what we should be about to prepare for and have. I don't think we're ever prepared, I don't care how healed we are there's some deep seeded hurt and grief still in our hearts for our angel baby(ies)

Much love and hugs your way Nicole!!! I'm here if you need to PM me...

[ak_mommie_of_4]

I know how you feel as well.... my due date was April 20th. *sigh* the closer that comes the more I think about it.

[DukesMommy12]

Oh Im so sorry, I had a melt down on the one month anniversary. I know Im going to be a mess in August.

Just dont hide from your feelings. If you feel sad, embrace it. Its important to feel what you need to to heal

[Isabelle]

I'm so sorry.
Really big hugs coming your way.
xxx

[jojo1207]

Hugs sweetie - due dates are hard. Lighting a candle for your little angel..

~i~

[martilynne]

I'm sorry. I also have a EDD coming up on 3/08 so I know how hard it can be...

[ohnicole]

Thanks everyone for all the support. It's good to know we aren't alone (but really sad to think about how many people have had to go through this). Hugs to everyone else whose due dates are coming up soon. It really is tough.

[mafiamom]

i am so sorry. due dates with nothing to show for them but sadness is the pits i am dreading mine and it is still 5 months away.

gosh your situation just sucks. i know how TOTALLY FRUSTRATING it is to feel powerless to control things in your life. and i dont know about you, but patience isnt one of my gifts. i pray that an answer to all that you are going thru makes itself known to you, and soon.

huge huge hugs.

[EJsMommy]

I know how you feel regading the being hugely pregnant at this point or for me already have the baby. My EDD is tomorrow so I am a bit under the weather emotionally.