[dreamer10]

After 3 devastating loses I have to say that all that faith I had after the first loss, then the 2nd loss and now the 3rd is beginning to hurt. I have just barely stopped bleeding after this last loss and as much as I want to rush out and try again I want to wait for the tests they did last week to see if there is something we can treat for me. I don't want to rush into another miscarriage....I get pregnant really easily, but I have not been able to keep a hold of the little ones. Which is so strange for me since I have had 9 perfect, wondeful pregnancies with absolutely no complications. Thats why it's all so strange that this is happening now.

I am really happy each and every time I see someone post a bfp because I know how it feels to get one of those. For all the babies I have had and all the bfp's I never tire of those! They're wonderful! When you get one please post it...it's a boost to those of us still trying.

Thank you ladies for sharing your struggles and triumphs. It's nice to know I have someplace to be where there are women who know exactly how I feel. I have a shortage of those in my life. Most my friends are actually pregnant right now...which is wonderful, but bittersweet at the same time too...

Thanks for listening....

Julie

[Isabelle]

Hugs Julie. Big hugs.
xxx

[mafiamom]

julie my heart breaks for you. 3 losses would test ANYONES faith. i can only imagine the trepidation you feel when you fall pregnant. it is hard enough to have one loss, but three - that is just cruel.

i have no words - all i can say is we are all here for you - rooting for you 100%.

many hugs and prayers for healing, mind and body~

[JesSsica]

I'm sorry, Julie.

My losses caught me off guard too. Before, I had two pregnancies in my life and two kids. Easy. With my dh (my kids are from my 1st marriage) I've had two pregnancies and two losses. It's so sad, especially for him because he has no biological kids.

It shakes your confidence. I was due May 14. I know two people due just weeks ahead of where I was. It's going to kill me next month when they give birth. I'll be so happy for them and so devastated for myself. I would be only about 8 or 9 weeks from giving birth had I not lost the first of my recent pregnancies. I can't get that out of my mind.

You're right, we are here and we definitely can empathize... sad but true. It's been a great comfort to come here and have people say, "I understand" and know that they really do.

IRL if one more person tells me, "I hope you're not still trying-- you need to give your body a rest after what you've been through" I'm going to scream.................................. Everyone here just says, "Good luck and go with what you feel you're ready for". That is nicer to hear. LOL

[dreamer10]

Jessica...funny that you would mention what people had been saying to you. I have 3 friends inparticular that have said that exact thing. One of them even said "well of course you keep miscarrying, your body isn't ready to hold to a pregnancy. You should be waiting at least 6 months..." Well..if I wait 6 months between each try then I will 42 before getting pregnant again.... I know they mean well...they just don't get it. I like it here cause the women do get it...they understand. I love them all.

Thanks for the love and support guys...it sooo helps!

[JesSsica]

I just tell people that a miscarriage happens because of things out of our control. If our bodies are ready to be pregnant, you will get pregnant. If it's not, you won't.

I don't think my chemical pregnancy was related in any way to my initial loss. I think it was a terrible fluke that happened and I only knew about it because I was testing early. Had I not been paying attention I probably would have realized that it had been awhile since my last period and then AF would have shown up heavy. I would never have known and would have just assumed that it's taken several pregnancies to get pregnant again.

[.:Shortcake:.]

I just wanted to say Hugs and I hope the doctors can figure out what is going on for you and that its an easy fix

[ohnicole]

I'm so sorry for your losses. One loss is hard enough to make it through.... three in a row, I can't even imagine how difficult that is. I really hope that the testing you had done helps your next pregnancy last a happy and healthy 9 months.

[ldovey83]

HUGS hun.. Experiencing a loss is rough let alone 3.. I have had 2 back to back and it tried my faith.. It really did, and it still hurts to this day.. It has definitely changed me as a person.. I am not who I was.. MY DH has noticed that.. I love that I can com e here and talk with other women who have been down that path and share my stories and my vents with them... NO ONE truly knows the pain of loss until they have been down that road.. Hang in there hun and I hope that you get that BFP real soon..

[Kary♥RN]

Oh Julie... HUGS.. I so understand where you are coming form.... I too have had three back to back losses..... I am now on my 4th BFP... and I still don't have confirmation..... My faith is more than tried at this point. I am just numb. I don't know if this will turn into a 4 loss.... Faith and Hope is all that we have left... no matter how small or tested that faith and hope is.... HUGS

[EJsMommy]

{{{Hugs}}}

[Jmcrican137]

I can definitely understand...4 bfp and only 1 baby who is now 8 turning 9. I had 2 miscarriages back to back. I am currently terrified. I am in my ttw, AF due 3/7. I just don't know what i want.. want a baby in the worst way, however terrified of outcome...

all we can do is just keep pressing on and just trusting that when we do get our BFP all will be perfect..

[martilynne]

I know how you feel. I try to be positive every time I get pregnant and every time I end up hurting worse...