[daisyjay2]

well, i'm not very comfortable talking about this with anyone. i had a miscarriage in early december at 10 weeks after seeing baby that measured a week behind and heartbeat on the low side just a few weeks earlier. no bleeding, no cramping, just went in for a routine appt. and the heart had stopped beating and baby had passed. i ended up having a d and c a week later which honestly was not a bad experience for me. i ovulated exactly 2 weeks later and got af 2 weeks after that. i then got a positive opk jan. 22 and 23rd and low and behold caught that egg and got my bpf on feb 3rd. i can't tell you how excited we were. had my betas drawn and they looked good. no spotting or bad cramping, and actually have had some symptoms this time. never had before, even with my dd. so, went in last thurs at 6 and 1/2 weeks and just didn't see what we wanted so sent me yesterday for a "heavy machinery" u/s. same story. baby measured a week and a half behind and heartbeat was low. man, talk about pouring salt in a fresh wound. i had myself prepared not to see anything, but not to see that. so now i guess we just sit and wait for baby to pass and then talk about another d and c. i had an appt with my dr. today and she said not to expect it to survive, but you never know... really though, i think we do know. she said since we have a healthy almost 2 year old, it is most likely not genetic, just really bad luck. great, lucky me. anyway, so here we sit, and here we wait. i have another u/s on wednesday. honestly, i am praying to God that we see a faster heartbeat and a baby with a week's growth. i know though, in my heart of hearts, that we will most likely see baby with no heartbeat. i just pray that we don't see like one day's growth and a similarly low heartbeat and continue with the waiting game... anyway ladies, thank you for letting me post this here. i know many of you understand and have been in my shoes at one time or another. good luck to all of you in having healthy pregnancies in the near future.
Jayme

[ak_mommie_of_4]

Oh hun I am so sorry for your loss. I know the waiting game is torture. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. If this baby doesn't stick, I pray you will get a healthy BFP soon. I hope you have good news on Wednesday. If not we are here for you either way! Please keep us posted.

[JesSsica]

I'm so sorry. I can relate... I had two losses back to back and it's awful! You go in leary anyway and then to have it happen again. It's undescribable. I'm so sorry.

I will keep my fingers crossed that maybe, just maybe there is something miraculous going on and things will end up happy. We're here if you want to talk...

[mum74]

I'm so sorry. I truly hope there will be good news for you at the next ultrasound.

[Isabelle]

Massive hugs & lots of wonderful luck.
xxx

[dreamer10]

I am so sorry...I know how you feel. Last sept I had a chemical miscarriage. Then in dec I had the same thing happen that you did. Slow growth and slow heartbeat...the baby passed dec 14th. Then I got pregnant in jan with another and the same thing happened. At the 6 week check the baby was way too small and not growing like it should. This third miscarriage just happened last week. I was almost 8 weeks along. I can relate to how you feel because I have had several pregnancies that went great and then this...three times in a row. It's been heartbreaking...at best. I have not yet given up hope and did have some tests done this week to see if we can find a cause. Things like this are so hard and so heartbreaking...but this is the place to talk and find comfort. There are so many who have suffered the same kind of thing and they can offer so much love and support. I have never found a nicer bunch of ladies in my life.

Know that I will be praying for you...

[Natalie_Snow]

Jayme, I am so sorry for your loss and hope your baby has a faster heartbeat on Wednesday! HUGS & Good luck!!!! sending you positive thoughts!

[ohnicole]

I'm so sorry for your loss. Losing a baby after seeing a heartbeat on u/s is so tough. I can't imagine how hard it must be to be worrying that it is happening again. I really hope that when you go for your next u/s, everything looks fine. My fingers are crossed for you. Hugs.

[mommie2many]

Im so sorry for your loss, Im praying for you.

[Jmcrican137]

i can completely relate and am so sorry for your loss. Know that i am praying for you. Good luck on your appointment. However it goes, we are here for you... **HUGS**

[EJsMommy]

I am sorry for your loss. Going through something like this shatters the heart. I have only had one loss (Oct 30th 2009 - induced delivery Nov 4th) and that was our first. I am unable to relate to the D&C experience but either way it is still hard.
You will be in my T&P and however it goes on your u/s appointment we are here for you. {{{Hugs}}}

[daisyjay2]

Thank you girls. You are all so sweet and I really appreciate your comments and kind words. I will let you know how it goes. I know it is in God's hands and miracles do happen, but we are preparing our hearts for the worst knowing that will most likely be the case.

[lex1078]

So sorry Jaime. Gosh, that must be real difficult for you. Good luck with your appt. Please KUP on how you are doing. You are in my thoughts & Prayers.

[Kary♥RN]

Jayme... HUGS.. I am so sorry for your loss.. and now this.... HUGS... I will be praying....

If you ever need to talk about your loss.... Pregnancy Loss - JustMommies Message Boards is a great place for support also.... HUGS

[martilynne]

I'm so sorry for your loss. We had the same thing with our second loss, slow growth and low heart rate and no h/b at the next u/s.

[ldovey83]

HUn many many hugs to you.. I have two losses in a row and it is really rough.. I hope that when you go back in for your next ultrasound that you get great news.. I will definitely keep you in my prayers.. HUGS!!!

[Celena]

Jayme hello and to TTCAL!

I'm glad to see you're here and comfortable enough to tell your story... you'll find everyone here to be so wonderful, understanding & compassionate!

Miracles happen and you just never know, you just may see a strong heartbeat on that monitor next week... the heart could have "just" started beating within a day or so, so perhaps that is why it was slower than normal. I know you want to prepare yourself for the worst and that you're having deja vu... however stranger things have happened (exact quote from my peri doc)

Hang in there, in the mean time try to be as positive as you can... or stay busy with good distractions like reading, movies, activities with your little one. I'm sorry that you're so in limbo right now... but I hope that the only other correspondance that we hear from you will be you updating us on how you'll be over at the due date clubs Good luck and KUP!