Honey I am sorry that you're feeling this way, it gets to a point were you feel like it's never going to happen... but IT WILL... just not in our time and not in our control. Try to hang in there and look at the ultimate goal, the ultimate blessing that you're working towards

it will all pay off the day you're holding that little one!
Believe you me, I understand like so many others do... we're hitting the 2 year mark of when we started TTC our first together. Since then we've gone thru 3 losses just in a matter of months of each other July, August & February and here we are in limbo. I know it will happen for us one day, when? I just don't know. I was extremely discouraged after our 2nd loss and now... well I'm sorta numb.
Wish I could be of more help... thought I'd share a little with you so you don't feel so alone in that aspect of your feelings. These are the days I wish that a magic wand was REAL and I could wave it in the air disspelling so many negative & bad things to a place far far away.