[tobi4]

So, its been exactly a month from the day that I started bleeding. I went to have my final blood work drawn yesterday and it came back today at 0. And of course Im glad for that, to know that there aren't any complications. But it really just makes me so sad. Its really and truly over. I imagine when AF shows Ill be feeling the loss all over again.
And I havent yet mentioned it to him, but although we have decided to try again after AF, Im absolutely terrified. I do have 4 children, I have been very blessed. This is the second m/c, the first being 13 years ago. Since then Ive had my son and twin daughters, all healthy.
My partner has no children of his own and I dont want him to miss out on such an amazing journey, but really, Im not sure I can do this again. Im 39, and this is just so hard.
I imagine what Im feeling is very common, especially hitting the 1 month mark.
I will TTC once more but if this happens again, I think Im out.
Thanks for being here.
Tobi

[BeccaM]

Tobi I understand how you feel. I know that does not make it any better thou. I'll be 36 later this year and have no children but my lil angel. You need to do what is best for you. I'll be hitting my one month mark soon too and I have a feeling its not going to be easy... We are here for you... HUGS!

[dreamer10]

Tobi...I know how you feel. At least somewhat. My dh and I are the parents of all of our kids...so we don't have that in common, but on the other hand we have had 9 and that's wonderful! But I have had 3 loses in a row and I am just not sure if I can keep doing this over and over. I will be 40 this year and that's not helping either. So many questions, so many doubts. I will say though...I have some faith left in me and I will try again. We both want one more and I guess if I don't try then I will sit and wonder forever what might have been.

Good luck and don't give up hope. Try again and through your journey we will all be there for you...that's what the wonderful ladies on this board do best...love and support!

Julie

[mafiamom]

i know exactly how you feel. i am excited and scared to death all at the same time. it used to be i just worried about GETTING pregnant, now i will worry about BEING pregnant and that just sucks.

i too have decided if it doesnt stick this time, i am done.

i am so very sorry for your loss ~

[Isabelle]

Massive hugs.

Our month anniversary was the 5th. It was horrible. I'm still waiting for my period. I'm 41 and it does terrify me to think about having another baby. I've had 3 back to back wonderful, healthy pregnancies. This loss gutted me beyond words.

Hang in there. The best is yet to come

Joanne

[alethia]

thinking of you....it's a step at a time right now. i'm so sorry for your loss. Sending you lots of warm thoughts.

[martilynne]

I kind of know how you feel, it has been almost one month since my last loss. I can't wait for AF to show so we can try again, but I also just stopped bleeding a couple days ago... Nobody should have to go through what we have all been through