It sounds like a GREAT appointment Lovisa!
I'm sorry that you feel a little defeated about the clomid, but think of it this way your doctor is trying to have you go natural for 6 months which is good... clomid does have some possible common & serious side effects, so he's just sticking to a protocol trying to get you there with as little intervention as possible. He does sound like he has your best intrests in mind especially with checking your inner workings letting you know everything looks good. Take it in stride, he did say he'd give it to you tho

and like Kary said May is REALLY close!
I know it's easier said than done about taking things in stride, we feel like we're racing against a clock sometimes some of us... I'm really sorry tho hon, hang in there not much longer and praying you conceive BEFORE you even go back to see him
Com'on Lovisa's BFP!!!