[ohnicole]

I just feel totally drained after this past week. Time to pamper myself with a little venting

The main thing that has been going on is trying to figure out the next step in my sister's stroke rehab. Trying to deal with rehab facilities, health insurance, employers, lawyers, and set up a benefit is soooo hard and so frustrating. I spend all the time that I am not with my sister on the phone arguing. The whole system is messed up beyond belief. It is disgusting. If I think about it too long I will probably have a panic attack.

Next Wednesday is my EDD for my loss. I won't get to be with my DH, I won't get any privacy or alone time (because most likely my sister is coming home next week and will need constant care by 2 people), and I won't get to do any of the memorial things I wanted to. Today I was at Target and walked by the baby section and for the first time since my loss, I got really emotional about seeing baby stuff. It is so real now: I should have my baby NOW.

Also, hello CD30 without even having EWCM yet! Goodbye chances for a 2010 baby. Looks like I'm onto yet another 50 day cycle.

Sigh.

[Isabelle]

Hugs. I'm so sorry you are having a rough week. Big hugs.
xxx

[KAB]

I'm sorry you're having a rough week, you have a lot on your plate.

[dreamer10]

I am so sorry things have been so rough. It's hard enough with just your own things...but trying to help with your sister too...wow...you have every right to vent. Rough times. Make sure to pamper yourself though...do something that will make you feel good. A long soak in the tub with yummy bath salts and a good book, go to a movie and dinner with someone you love or maybe even go for a long walk with an ipod and some uplifing music....just some ideas. You are doing an amazing job taking care of everyone else in your life, now it's time to take care of yourself a bit....ok?

Hang in there....

[mafiamom]

oh my. the amount of stress you have in your life right now is overwhelming. you are one strong lady ~ please take the time to rejuvenate yourself. this is going to be a marathon not a sprint, so settle in at a good pace. dont burn yourself out.

between what you are dealing with YOURSELF and then your family issues - wow. please know that you truly are in my prayers.

huge huge hugs.

[martilynne]

I'm so sorry, EDD are so hard and you have everything else to deal with on top of that You will be in my thoughts this week

[ohnicole]

Thanks, ladies, for the support. I feel like this is a part of my life that I have to keep separate from the rest of my family right now because there are so many other things to stress about. It is great to know that everyone here understands.