On to a new cycle for me..

ldovey83 · #1 March 28th, 2010, 12:01 PM

I really really thought I was luck this last cycle. I thought that March was my lucky month and that we timed it perfectly.. I even resisted testing until today.. AF was due today and when I woke up and she wasn't there I got excited and pulled out one IC and tested and bam it was neg... 4 hours later the witch shows..

I am so upset.. I don't know what is wrong with my body.. I got pregnant so easily before my miscarriages and now it just isn't happening.. It is rather depressing.. I am trying to stay positive and keep my head up and get excited about this cycle, but to be truthful it is really hard to stay positive trying month after month after month with nothing.. I can't even go to the Dr to find out if I have a problem since the miscarriages because I have no insurance right now until DH's 90 days are up.. I just want to cry..

ohnicole · #2 March 28th, 2010, 12:04 PM

I'm so sorry this cycle wasn't it for you. Hugs.

It is so hard to feel like something might be wrong with your body and you can't do anything about it because of outside circumstances. I hope this cycle is your lucky one!

JesSsica · #3 March 28th, 2010, 12:08 PM

I'm so sorry. I can totally empathize. I got pregnant easily in the past. It continued right after my D&C but unfortunately that ended in a chemical pregnancy. Now since then, nothing. Weird.

It's so strange the way our bodies just stop cooperating. It's really frustrating. I'm so sorry and I hope that once your dh's 90 days is up you can get to the doctor and get the answers you need.

ldovey83 · #4 March 28th, 2010, 12:36 PM

Thanks ladies. I know you all understand.. DH still dosen't get why I get so upset.. It is so incredibly frustrating, and I swear if one more person tells me to stop stressing and just let it happen I am going to flip out.. I'm sorry but I am not like them where I get pregnant not even trying.. My body isn't like that.. I wish it was but it's not, and hearing them all complain about being pregnant just breaks my heart cause so many women want it and we are the ones that struggle and have these trying times..