[ohnicole]

I am living out of town from my DH right now. My cycles are irregular (pre-loss O days were CD19-26, post-loss O days have been CD25-65). My cycles had been trending downward toward my pre-loss cycles, so I planned a trip that would allow me and DH to BD for either a CD19 or CD26 O day. Of course, I didn't O during that week

I was frustrated about it, but I thought I was mostly fine with waiting to try to catch the next cycle, and then going on Clomid when I am living back at home. But today I started getting O pains and EWCM, which usually happens 2-3 days before O, and it is really making me upset. Especially because 3 days will put me on 3/31, my EDD.

How cruel would it be if I miss my O on this cycle (my last chance to get pg within a year of starting TTC, my last chance to get pg within 6 months of my loss, my last chance to get pg before my EDD, and my last chance to have a baby in 2010) because I am home supporting my sister through her rehab from 2 strokes?????? And then on top of that, to O EXACTLY on my EDD, when I cannot even be with my DH!!!!!!!!! That is just awful. Awful. Awful.

Sometimes I just can't handle the way things turn out.

[EJsMommy]

Massive Hugs!

[Natalie_Snow]

Big Nicole, I am so sorry!

[mommy x 10]

I'm so sorry.

[KAB]

I'm so sorry

[Isabelle]

A million tight hugs coming your way.

[j&jmom]

Sending hugs! I'm so sorry . . . stay strong.

[martilynne]

I'm so sorry

[BeccaM]

Im so sorry

[missy123]

I am so sorry you are going through this. 3 weeks after my loss last year my DF left to go work out of state for 6 months. It was really, really hard. He wasnt there to support me and hug me and our visits never seemed to go with my O dates... We saw eacch other 2 days a month. It was hard but we got through it and looking back it made our relationship stronger. We realized we can get through anything.

I hope this all works out for you, I understand how frustrating a time this is for you. ((Hugs))