[LisaG825]

Some days I think I am doing ok with my loss and other days I am not. I know that is normal but sometimes I feel like I just do not want to live. Like I will be driving down the road and wish that a car would smack into me just so I wouldn't have to live any more. If I have to take medication or something I feel like I want to take an entire bottle.

Does anyone else feel like this or something similar or do you think I should seek help?

[missy123]

I think you are feeling normal and going through the grieving process but at the same time should get some help. Maybe speak to your doctor asap? You could be going through the heartache of loss as well as some post-pardum depression. I am concerned for you as you say you wish a car would hit yours.
I do not sit in judgement as I have felt the same as you... Please call your doctor first thing sweetie.

With that said, I lost my last baby almost a year ago and sometimes it still hurts that much. Those times are fewer and farther between now but there are still moments when I sob and break down and just hurt so much. There were days on end where I would not get out of bed, where I just couldn't find the energy (or want) to go through the day. Don't put a time limit on yourself to heal. It is so freakin hard to lose a baby and no one really understands.

Super Huge Hugs... We are here for you, we understand, vent away.

[hearts.0nfire]

I was the same way when I lost mine in June. There were a couple of days where I seriously felt like I wanted to just die but it got better over time. I still have days where I miss him so much and will think about where I should be right now if things went the way they should have. I hope it gets better over time for you.

Maybe it would be good though to talk to somebody about it.

[.:Shortcake:.]

I also felt the same way but I do believe you should see a doctor. I had to go on anti-depressants after my loss and it was a very good thing I did. Hugs hun!

[martilynne]

I have felt the same way, and I am clinically depressed. You should probably talk to your doctor

[tobi4]

Aww hun. Im so sorry. Sometimes just talking to someone can help, so maybe talk to your Dr and see what they suggest? I suffered from depression at one point in my life and my Dr gave me antidepressants. I didnt take them, but it was a comfort knowing I had them just in case. I decided that as long as I could take one day at a time, and didnt feel worse, that I was healing.
I am worried about you. I wish you luck Lisa. Take care of you.
(Does dh know how you feel?)

[missy123]

Hi Lisa,

Just wanted to check in and see how you are doing. I am thinking of you... ((Hugs))

[JessP]

I have felt this way many times in my life. I would try to get to the dr. Its a terrible feeling and I hope you can start feeling better soon.

[LisaG825]

Dr. did ask me a long time ago if I wanted any medication. I told him no b/c I wanted to ttc again and didn't want to be on any meds or have to stop taking something b/c I end up pg. Now I don't have ins. so I am def. not going to ask for anything.