[tobi4]

God! What is wrong with me??? I think Im just torturing myself. As I posted yesterday, it has been 7 weeks since my loss at 7 1/2w. So what do I find myself doing last night? Looking at pictures of 14 weeks old fetus's. Talk about setting myself up for more hurt! I think because we didnt get a pos. preg this month that the whole thing is digging just that much deeper into me. I haven't seen the witch yet, but after 3 bfn's Im not holding out any hope at all. I have regular premenstrual symptoms, Im sure she is around the corner.
Im holding on to what should have been, Ive got to let go and I dont know how to do it. And yet letting go makes me feel guilty as though I am not giving the respect that is appropriate. And really, the respect owed to that baby is huge for me. It changed so much in my life, my b/f's life and our family. Much more than anyone could ever hope, in so short a time. Im rambling now. I just want to feel 'normal' again.

[Servilia]

I'm so sorry

I only just had my loss so I don't have much in the way of advice. You should grieve as much as you feel you need to...

[Admin-Rachel]

I don't think there is a right or wrong amount of time to grieve. And I'm sorry, I don't think you can just move on. I wish it were that simple.

I'm sorry AF is playing games with you. You're probably more emotional because of that, I'm sure. I always get really wild highs and lows the week or so before my AF arrives, even before I had my loss.

Like Judy, my loss was really recent, so I can't tell you how long till you'll feel normal again or if ever. ((hugs))

[martilynne]

I'm so sorry Tobi. The hurt will fade eventually but it will always be there. I hope you get a BFP or AF shows up soon...

[DukesMommy12]

You will always grieve for the loss of your child. You just have to deal with it in your own way.

Im still grieving for my first loss, and now my second one. It makes me ache for a BFP all the more, and honestly a sticky one to be exact.

Dont rush yourself into feeling "normal" grieve until you dont need to anymore.

[zkat]

You know, my m/c was 9/2 and up until Jan. I was very sad, depressed, and on the verge of tears all the time. DH even commented that my "spirit was broken" Then around Jan. something clicked and I slowly started coming out of it,but it probably wasn't until after Valentines day that I felt "back to my old self" somewhat. That is 5 months, you are not even at 2 months yet, so hang in there. It's in your time.

Kat.

[dreamer10]

I am so sorry....I know how you feel. It's sad to say that so many ladies here do. Your mind and spirit will heal, you just need time. 7 1/2 weeks is not that long ago...Go ahead and grieve. We are all here for you!

[Love-Bug]

Honey I completely understand I am feeling the same way too. And then I am hard on myself wondering why I can't just let things go back to normal. And then my husband has to remind me that it has only been a month. It takes time if we were over it already then I would think something was wrong with us. We will have our BFP soon I just know it!! Its the only way I get though life is looking forward to that day. Its hard because when I was pregnant both my husband and I saw a future we had to try harder because we were going to have a baby. Now life just sucks and no there isn't a light at the end of the tunnel. Hope we both get our BFP soon!! Hang in there and know that this is "normal".