[Natalie_Snow]

I have always been a person against drinking alcohol. I never drunk anything at the parties.. and legal drinking age in Europe is 18...I probably drink one glass of vine once a year..

I went to July DDC today and I saw those u/s pictures and thought that my baby would have been born soon... I look at those pics and I want to cry. I also watch Grey's Anatomy & Private Practice... and there are so many pregnancies and babies. i just want a baby... but since we're probably not trying for the next several months... I feel like I want to ask DH to buy some beer or vine. I do not think I'm depressed but this second loss made me wonder a lot. I'm 24 and all DH's relatives say we should wait to have kids.. they don't even know that I've already been pregnant twice. It seems like I'm surrounded by pregnant people or people with tiny babies... I am happy for them but I want one too .

Please tell me.. am I going crazzzy??

[RoadToDallas]

Hey There!

Your not completely going crazy. its soo weird u said that, i was in the June due date club too and was wnvious of all of the, : ( . iono what im going to do if im not pregnant by then : (. this is my first cycle and i'm going crazy in wonder. like AM I? and if i am im terrified of losing another baby. Everyone thinnks my fiance and i should wait to but they dont know what we've been through this last month. and most importantly they arent helping with anything either way. HUGGSS ur way hope u feel better. Sometimes i just want a drink too lol i think thats normal...

[..Michelle..]

Honey, to be completely HONEST with you. I've drank more since my loss July 6th, 2008 than I EVER have in my entire life. I mean not totally boffed off my arse, but I used to hate beer and now I go out with DH (during AF and when we're not TTC) and can sit at the tavern and drink with the best of em.
No I'm not proud of it, sometimes I feel awful in the morning. And I'm not depressed either. If anything I'm the total opposite. I have panic attacks.
So if a good glass (or bottle) of wine is what you want, have some. Just promise not to drink and drive!
's to you sweetie!
Michelle T.

[Natalie_Snow]

thank you guys! well I drunk 1 small bottle of beer and I guess it cured me (I usually hate beer)..because i do not want to drink anymore at all for another year. but is still feel sad. I don't think I was this desperate after my first loss.

[RoadToDallas]

Hope you feel better. believe me i never been desperate like this either : (

[SkyBaby]

I feel exactly the same way, hun. You're not alone. I do cry and get really annoyed every time I hear about an unwanted pregnancy in my family or at work. There are a couple at work already. More salt in the wound huh. I understand.

[Natalie_Snow]

thank you! it helps to know that I'm not alone... I guess the only thing that could help us would be finally getting a sticky BFP!

[LisaG825]

Natalie, I feel the same way although I don't think I have actually had a drink since my loss. I know I am depressed though. I just don't want to go on any meds. Sometimes I want to just swallow a whole bottle of meds or something. I have thought about drinking numerous times. I do have a bottle of wine from our wedding but haven't opened it or anything.

[martilynne]

Every time I have drank since my loss I turn in to a crying mess. Alcohol is a depressant so it can make you more depressed than you already are. I have to stay away, it makes me hate life.

[Servilia]

Natalie I'm happy you got cured (from the drinking urge) and don't want to drink anymore. It felt good for me to have a glass or two of wine after the m/c. Didn't make me too emotional either.. so I guess it depends on the person.