[mmllhh]

Hi, My name is Michelle (38) and DH is Paul (38). We've had 4 losses in the past year and we are still trying for out 1st. So, I've completely messed up on my dates this month, i got my last AF on March 7. I think that I ovulated 2 weekends ago, i poas OPK and got a positive. I've had my sister and her 1 yr old twins staying with us this week, so I've completely lost track of what day I am on and when exactly I ovulated. So, i poas yesterday and today and got a very very faint positive. Ok, so I Pee'd on 7 of them, over the past two days and they've all had a faint line. I'm not ready to admit to myself that I am Pregnancy but I know that I am. Confusing, i know. My bb's are sore and i've been exhausted, Couple that with the faint positive. I don't know if I can deny it any longer. I'm so afraid to be PG again. How did you guys deal with the conflicting emotions? I'm such a basket case right now, rediculously excited and scared to death. aaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[jayepink]

I can understand that feeling. For me, it's a matter of faith and also I have had some testing done so we believe we have found my "issue" and we've developed a plan for next pg. (though I believe it needs to be tweaked, but that's another story) Have your doctors been able to get to the bottom of what possibly caused your other losses?

Oh and... Congratulations and blessings!

[Admin-Rachel]

Congrats! I've not been pregnant after my loss, but I'm sure I'll have the same emotions when/if I do get pregnant. ((hugs))

[martilynne]

being pregnant after a loss is stressful but wonderful. I can't wait to be pregnant again.

[Kary♥RN]

MICHELLE!!!!! That is great news!!! PICS?? Hello? We want to obsess over that line!!!! I can understand you fears... I have been there... and there again!!! When you are ready the ladies over at PAL are great.. and will help you get through all your anxieties and fears!!! HUGS!!! H & H 9!!!!

[mmllhh]

I'm going to run to my Dr's at 230 to get some betas done to see if this is all real. I kept making my poor sister look at the HPT's all weekend. Just to make sure I wasn't seeing things.

[Kary♥RN]

WHOO HOOO!!! KUP on those numbers!!

[mmllhh]

Thanks Kary, will do. I posted over at PAL this morning. I'm so scared to even go on there, because if i keep pretending that it's not really happening then if i start bleeding again, i won't completely lose my mind. KWIM?

[Isabelle]

Yes we need pics

So excited for you

It's totally okay to be nervous..I think we all are/will be. Hugs.

[aitch]

so excited for you - I have everything crossed!

[dreamer10]

Congrats! I think I shadow what everyone else is saying...nervous but excited is the emotion I will have if/when I get pregnant again!

Hang in there!

[Celena]

Michelle... I hope you can enjoy this pregnancy as much as possible! H&H 9 months hon