[LisaG825]

I feel like a huge basket case today. I thought yesterday was going to be a bad day b/c I was 15w4d when I m/c and yesterday had been 15w4d since my m/c. Yesterday actually wasn't too bad. I was kind of at peace with it. Today is a whole different story. Actually I guess it all started about midnight or so last night. I am still waiting to hear if my OBGYN has written a letter to see about getting my ins. reinstated. They weren't sure when I went to get my blood work this morning. I have been stressed over my stupid bw. Didn't know whether to get it or not b/c I really can't afford it. I decided to go ahead and get it done so now they have to send it to a different lab so it won't cost as much. With the hospital lab I was getting my results the same day and now i won't get them til tomorrow. I am also waiting to hear back from the caseworker about my ins. I had my oncologist write a letter too. Trying to see if they got the letter.

So yeah not a good day at all for me. I wish I had one LARGE sleeping pill to take so I could just go to sleep and forget about it for at least one night. I woke up I don't know how many times. I went to bed about 4 am and woke up at 8. Pretty moody today. DH was like what is your problem. I just told him I am having a bad day. Then he kept asking why am I having a bad day. GRRRRR That makes me even more mad. LOL I am so tired of having these stupid hormones in my body. I am still tired all the time. I swear I will prob. end up with them in my system longer than a normal preg. I am not going to be a happy camper if I am still showing pg. when my edd comes around on June 5th. What a day. I guess at least I have the day off so I don't have to mess with any kids or ppl at work.

[EJsMommy]

Lisa sending you massive hugs and hope you are ok in spite of your hormones.

[..Michelle..]

Super, giant 's to you today! I hope you get some well needed rest and your DH quits bugging you, Lisa!
Michelle T.

[mmllhh]

Michelle, i'm so sorry that you have to be going thru this. I'm glad you decided to get your blood done. Some things are more important than money. And they can't put medical bills on your credit report so, don't stress. Plus if you send them even $5 a month they can't consider you late. I'm hoping you see below 5 on your labs from today so you can start to emotionally heal. HUGS. We are hear for you.

[LisaG825]

Unfortunately I have been sent to collections and have medical bills on my credit report. DH even has bad credit too b/c we are married. I had excellent credit at age 21 and now I have crappy credit b/c of my work injury and medical bills there.

[mmllhh]

they shouldn't be able to put that stuff on your credit report. it's against the law, you should call the credit company and have them take it off.

[martilynne]

I want so badly for this to be over for you Lisa. For awhile I was taking advil pm's every night, they really helped me not wake up. I know that's the least of your worries but maybe it could help...

[LisaG825]

I hope you get some well needed rest and your DH quits bugging you

Me too!!! I think I am going to make a couple phone calls for my ins. and go take a nap. DH is gone to school for a couple of hours and is bringing home a XXXXL cheesy pizza! LOL Guess that won't help with the diet but oh well.



Thanks Ladies, You are all wonderful! I just really needed to vent and get it out.

[LisaG825]

they shouldn't be able to put that stuff on your credit report. it's against the law, you should call the credit company and have them take it off.

You would think, especially since it was workcomp related. I owe about 30k and have already paid about 5k. Prob. a lot more than that now. I had a collections company that wouldn't even take $20 from me they wanted $300 a month min. I couldn't do it. I finally agreed to $100 but the end of May they won't get that. I told them to take me court b/c they would prob. only end up getting $10 a month.

For awhile I was taking advil pm's every night, they really helped me not wake up. I know that's the least of your worries but maybe it could help..

.

Right now I feel like I would take just about anything. My mom laughed at me for this but I have been taking this 14 day cleanse stuff. My dr. thought the cells could have possibly spread throughout my body and what not from the molar pg. and so I thought maybe that 14 day cleanse would flush it out quicker. Obviously not working because I am on my second box now.

[Natalie_Snow]

Lisa, I am so sorry you're having such a hard time..and problems with medical bills. I am still paying off my huge bills that I got from ER during my first m/c. They are also threatening that they're going to send it to collections. I am making $75/month payments but now they say they want $1,000 up front and only then to continue making payments.

I hope you get some good rest!!! {HUGS}

[LisaG825]

Well, talked to caseworker and she talked to an administrator and I can't get it b/c I had a m/c. I am seriously considering telling the hospital that DH and I split up so I can fill out a hardship form through the hospital. I am afraid with his job now they will say he makes too much even though all of my paychecks plus some of his go to medical bills already. Wonder if that would work. That is about the only thing I could think to do.

If I can't do that then no blood work for me unless it costs about 10 or 20. I really doubt that will happen though so more than likely I won't be getting it. I think I am just going to use $1 store tests and test every 4 or 5 days. Then if I am not neg in 1 month I will get bw.

[tobi4]

Lisa, I am so sorry you are going through all this. Its been such a hard road for you, I can not even imagine all you are going through. I admire your strength. You have such a sweet nature and I have to believe that everything will turn out for you.
~~hugs~~ I wish there was more I could do.