[~*sierra*~]

I always feel sad when i think about my losses, of course. but lately sometimes i just feel SO angry. like really really mad...... anyone else get like that?

i'm just mad that it happened to me, angry that i keep letting my dh and family down.......etc

[lex1078]

I feel mad too. I also wonder why it's happening to me. I don't think I feel like I've let everyone else down, just myself really.

[MeganMomof5]

I too am very angry, mad, pissed off and bitter...I hate feeling this way

[BabyAthena]

Me too. Sometimes I just ***** around for no reason. Today was one of those days where I was just angry no matter what. Angry, mad, upset, annoyed, frustrated just plain arghhh.....

[Servilia]

Yes you are definitely not alone!! I feel like that a lot too. Especially when I see pregnant women (strangers) or babies. I think why did they get to keep their babies and not me??????

[*~Candy~*]

yes!! I am bitter. I find myself thinking "why can THEY have a baby but I cannot" and just mean thoughts about other people who are lucky to have a baby. It's not fair and I think being mad, angry, pissed off and bitter are all very normal feelings for someone to lose something so precious.

[Admin-Rachel]

Yes! I also get angry at myself. I know this is irrational, but I can't help it. I get mad at myself for not thinking it could happen to me. I've been a member of JM for 5.5 years and I've seen so many losses. More than I can count. I feel like I should have prepared myself better. Or at all.

[Isabelle]

Extreme angry.
I'm in sheer panic mode, being 41.

[DukesMommy12]

I am, I hate it I hate it I hate it.
Im angry and bitter always.
It takes me months to get pregnant.
So Im constantly anxious and upset
Then to be pregnant and lose teh baby.
It kills me

[~*sierra*~]

well glad i'm not the only one. i find myself thinking mean things about other ppl i see with kids too.....then i try to just push that from my mind cause i dont want that bad karma.

[jayepink]

A thought that I have quite a bit is It sure must be nice to just be able to get pregnant and have a baby nine months later. And when I'm thinking that, I'm almost always in some state of being upset/frustrated.

[mmllhh]

I think it's totally normal and actually healthy to get angry. I think its a stage your have to go thru when you grieve.

[mommie2many]

I sure do, the last few days Ive been angry thinking how I should be holding a newborn right now.( my edd was Apr 10). Or when I hear someone is pregnant without even trying or they didnt want to be.

[sweetgirl51305]

I am angry a lot too. I had my 2nd loss recently. The 1st one I was more sad and depressed and really wanted to get back into ttc. This time I am extremely angry. I get pissed when I go to the dr and see all the pregnant women (I've been having to go the dr every wk 'cuz my betas were dropping very slowly). And my job isn't the easiest after a m/c (I'm an infant room teacher). So everything gets to me sometimes. I get depressed sitting at home 'cuz it's all I think about, but when I go out and see baby things or pregnant women I get pissed. And what makes me even more angry, even though I love the show, is the 16 and pregnant show. Last week was a teenager having TWINS and I just wanted to throw the remote through the tv at her. All I ever say is it's not fair. And that's what it is. IT'S JUST NOT F***ING FAIR! And I feel pressure from my family to have a baby and I'm scared TO DEATH to try again. I want a baby, yes, but I CANNOT go through another loss! I even took time away from these boards 'cuz all I would do is just sit and cry reading them. It's getting easier as time goes by, but it will never go away. In fact, I plan on going and getting a tattoo on mothers day to memorialize my babies. Sorry this is so long, had to rant too. DH and mom just don't understand sometimes.

[Celena]

Hey honey...

YES! So angry it was consuming everything... it was in nearly every thought. I could go thru a long list of things that made me infuriated about my losses, it was the worst last summer with my 2 back to back losses in July & August. The anger turned into a deep depression as well which seemed so inescapable... it kept spiriling deeper into this black hole.

I cannot exactly tell you what made me or helped me stap out of it... it was a process, that of which is greiving. I think realizing that and accepting that there was nothing I could do to prevent it, that it was and just is without meaning or reasons that I may ever know in this lifetime. There are things that I may never be at peace with during one of the losses which is the dr mistake, but other than that I've come to terms with them. Their due dates were/are hard to come by... it made me a little angry, manic and very depressed all over again. It took me a few weeks to go thru the greif of not going into labor, not birthing and not holding my babe when I should be...

ugh.

Let yourself be ANGRY, it's OK!!!! It's part of the greiving process for some of us.

[kitkat8323]

Im angry very angry alot of the time i too am an infant room teacher and i see how some of the parents are in there and it makes me even more pissed they got to have thier baby and i lost mine and cant seem to get preggers again every day that passes the anger gets that much more i hate it but i think its just a natural part of what we all are going through

[stargatemommy]

Yep. I lost the sad feeling after loss #4. Since then I just get angry! Like throwing stuff across the room angry...