[ohnicole]

My cycles were irregular before my pg, but they have been even worse since my loss. Right now the best I can do is estimate that I am most likely to ovulate between CD19 and CD34 (and FF agrees with me ). Since I am out of town, away from DH, that makes it difficult to plan trips for TTC.

Last cycle I got so frustrated by missing O, that I have planned a trip to cover CD18-CD35 of this cycle. And now I am half convinced that something is going to screw up my plans. Either I won't be able to take the trip, or I will ovulate before CD18 or after CD35. And I think if that happens, I will go crazy. I am already extra emotional all the time, feeling really irritated or on the verge of tears, and it's all because of trying to come to terms with how long I have been TTC and TTCAL. I really don't know how I would handle not getting the chance to TTC this cycle.

I feel like I am being so gloomy, but for some reason, I can't convince myself that it will work out this cycle.

[dreamer10]

I know how you feel. I did everything right this last cycle and it still didn't work. AF showed today....

Rant and rave away....its ok! We get it!