[blessedx7]

Our first month TTC and I couldn't bring myself to do it. I want to be pregnant and have another baby SO bad, but once ovulation rolled around, I couldn't do it. I am still so afraid after my ectopic last year. What is wrong with me? That was the most horrific experience I have ever gone through and not knowing exactly why it happened or if it will happen again still scares me. Plus I had just been home 6 days from an extremely emotional and exhausting trip to Ethiopia to bring home our 6yr old son we adopted when I found out I was pregnant. It was a year ago this month that I got pregnant. In fact, had I gotten pregnant this month, I would have had the exact same duedate as I had with the ectopic pregnancy. Maybe it being the same month and duedate was what made it too much for me this time and next month will be easier.

Many blessings,
Kelly

[Isabelle]

Big hugs sweetie. It is very scary

[JessP]

I had the same fears. And the due date thing is the worst. I officially hate August DD and if we decide to TTC again we will avoid it like the plague. Don't feel bad about being scared. It is totally normal. My first loss and second loss were both about a week apart for conception, due date and sadly loss dates. Pregnancy after loss is worriesome to say the least. I hope next month goes better for you and you are able to get busy .

[blessedx7]

Thank you all so much. Now that O is past I am stoked and geared up to try next month! I hope that feeling stays.