[Ashley S]

I am a giant ball of nerves at this point. I had a previous ectopic so when I found out I was pregnant, I went to the doctor the following day (Wednesday). They took my first beta and the numbers were relatively low in my mind (348 at an estimated 5 weeks). I gave my second sample today at 2 pm and was told the on call doctor would call me tonight to let me know the results. Ive carried my phone everywhere with me, constantly checking. Finally at 10 pm I paged the oncall Dr just to find out the lab had closed without giving her the results and that Id now have to wait until tomorrow. The nerves of everything is finally catching up to me ...my hands are shaking just typing this. The not knowing is almost worst than knowing. I can't change things if it is ectopic.....I realize that....I just want to know.

I have no idea how Im going to make it through tomorrow and to make matters worse, my husband is acting like nothing is happening. He's busy playing his games/talking to his friends while Im about to break down. It makes it feel like this is happening to "me" instead of to "us".

[mmllhh]

Ashley. I'm so sorry that you have to feel like this again. I know it's hard, but try to relax. I'm sure that sounds pretty impossible right now. Hopefully you will get the call/results you are looking for in the AM and you can get back to enjoying the next nine months. Keep us posted. Good luck.

[Celena]

Ashley

I'm so sorry to hear that you're hanging on there with a giant bunch of nerves! My perinatologist / maternal fetal med doc said the chances of another ectopic in most cases is that it will never happen again, however there are definitely risks that increase the chances of another ectopic... it's obviously higher than someone who's never had one, but at the same time it doesn't mean it'll ever happen again. There are several factors that would have to someone at risk to have another.

How was your first one resolved? How far along were you? Did they check your tubes for scar tissue or blockages?

Please don't assume that you're going to have another, but the fear is entirely understandable being that you've had one before... it's SCARY!!! Not only have you had a LOSS, but the fear of another ectopic tubal pregnancy adds even more of a worry a different worry to the mix as well.

Hang in there and we're here for you, WELCOME btw...

I'm Celena one of the co-hosts here at TTCAL, and there'a also a group I host called Ectopic Pregnancy Survivors (you can click on the blinkie)

[dreamer10]

Hang in there hun....we all have had some horrible waiting games of our own...try to keep your chin up and talk to all of us....we can relate! Good luck!

[tobi4]

Good luck hun, I wish you the best! ~~hugs~~ Update us when you find out anything ... we will be here.

[missy123]

Welcome to JM... The waiting for answers can be so hard... I am sorry you are going through all this. Hopefully it ends up well and you enter a DDC!

[Ashley S]

First off, let me apologize for having a min-breakdown. The stress of the waiting combined with lack of sleep equated to me being a mess. Ive been following the boards here for awhile but never registered. Last night it felt like no one understood what was going through my head and I thought (and was right!) that the ladies here would understand.

Thankfully my husband came through and calmed me down last night complete with birthday cake flavored ice cream . I finally went to sleep and sure enough at 8 am this morning my doctor came through. My numbers more than doubled! Im now near 800. I still feel like they're a bit low for nearing 6 weeks but she explained that some women just start low. I go in on Monday to see if they can see anything but that phone call alone felt like the weight of the world was lifted off my shoulders.

I know there's still a lot of "what-ifs" this early in the game but I feel like a huge hurdle was just cleared.

Thank you for all your support...now I can go back to being a semi-sane person

[Kary♥RN]

Ashley... I am sorry about your previous loss... But that news is GREAT! I am so happy you have doubled... Since you have had a previous loss... the ladies over on PAL... Pregnancy After Loss - JustMommies Message Boards Are a great group of support and can answer any of your pregnancy concerns after having a loss!!! I can't wait to see you over there!!

[JessP]

So glad your numbers more than doubled. And do be sorry for breakdowns that is totally normal. Kary is right the PAL board is an amazing group of ladies too. All the ladies on JM are . Welcome and I am sorry for your previous loss.

[blessedx7]

That is fantastic news that they doubled! As someone who barely survived an ectopic, I can totally relate to your fear. We decided to start trying this month and when the time came I couldn't because of the fear it would be ectopic. I want to be pregnant again so bad but the fear that even the small chance it could be ectopic again is greater than the fear I may never be able to conceive again. It's scary. I will be praying for your sweet little bean....that it's in the right spot and is born bouncing after a healthy 9mo.