Think I've set myself up for disappointment

KAB · #1 April 29th, 2010, 07:43 PM

I was convinced that this was going to be my month to get my BFP. During O I just knew that we were going to catch that egg, I don't know if I was just trying to be positive, but I was convinced that this was our month! All during this 2ww I've had all kinds of symptoms and feelings and couldn't wait to see it on the test to confirm my feeling. Well, I tested at 8, 9, and 10 dpo, which I know is still a little early, and all were BFN. Today DH took all my tests, every last one of them and hid them from me cause he was tired of me testing and then being upset. I'm afraid I've just set myself up to be disappointed this month, I was so convinced and now I'm just 5 days away from my expected AF and I'm truly afraid it's all coming to an end.

Part of the reason I wanted it so badly this month is because my EDD would be right around my mom's bday and she passed away almost 10 yrs ago from cancer, I would love a little girl to name after her. I'm just frustrated with this whole TTC thing, it's been 4 yrs now for DH and I, all I want is one baby, is that really too much to ask for? I'm still holding on to a little bit of hope, I still have symptoms even though DH is trying to convince me it's all in my head, and I know he just doesn't want to be disappointed again either. Anyway, I guess I just needed to get that out, I'm trying not to let the stress of TTC get the best of me. DH will give all my tests back on Monday morning, I'm praying with everything in me that I still get that BFP.

Celena · #2 April 29th, 2010, 08:19 PM

You're still so early Kimberly, don't give up yet!!! Altho I'm glad that DH is really trying to keep you sane, he loves you so much to do that as annoying as it may be. Whatever you do, don't give up hope yet. Don't loose sight of your dreams, that's what keeps us going right?

Ya know I don't know your situation as I'm not in it just like you with mine... her n her, etc etc... our feelings are so real and so big to each of us. Just when we feel like there's no more hope, we pull thru the pain and gain strength from within to keep on truckin along fighting our way to reach our dreams! We see it here all the time

The blinkie that I have I'll just sit there and read it over, over, over again... "You gotta put up with the Rain if you want the Rainbow" it's bittersweet inspirerational words.

Isabelle · #3 April 30th, 2010, 05:03 AM

Massive hugs. It's never over till that witch shows.

EJsMommy · #4 April 30th, 2010, 05:24 AM

Massive Hugs! It aint over until the AF shows.

lex1078 · #5 April 30th, 2010, 06:48 AM

(((Hugs))) TTC is one of the most frustrating things EVER!!! I hope you tested too early and you'll get your BFP! Fingers and toes are crossed for you!