So, I'm pretty sure that I am out this cycle. UPDATE #1

mmllhh · #1 May 6th, 2010, 07:41 PM

I'm 12dpo today and got a bfn, no hint of a line. and i have no symptoms. Just waiting for af to get here now, so I can get on to my second cycle of Clomid.

I'm bummed, but have been all week, i think it's because it's mothers day this weekend and all i have to show for the last 1.5 yrs is 5mc's and broken heart. I should be celebrating mothers day, with my own baby, and i'm not. I'm starting to get nervous that at 38yrs old, this is it. no baby for me. and if one more person tells me to adopt. i'm going to scream. I don't want to adopt, i don't see anything wrong with it, but i'm not ready to throw in the towel. and i love how people think that you can "just adopt". like it's easy to do. grrrr....

ok, i'm dont whining, i needed to get it out.

Update:

So, i called the dr this am because I wanted to know when i could stop the progesterone if i am not pg. They are going to have me come in tomorrow AM to get a blood test done, just to be doubley sure before i stop the suppositories.

Kary♥RN · #2 May 6th, 2010, 07:47 PM

HUGS.. I am so sorry.... But unless AF shows.. you are not out..... I am praying for a BFP for you! HUGS

Natalie_Snow · #3 May 6th, 2010, 08:26 PM

Massive HUGS.. I am sorry you did not get your BFP... but you're still not out for this cycle... and if you are, i wish you GL next cycle and I am sending tons of baby dust your way!!!!

lex1078 · #4 May 7th, 2010, 05:08 AM

Sorry for your BFN, but like everyone's said, you're not out yet.

I understand about Mother's day. It's not a good holiday when you've been TTC for so long.

~Lynda~ · #5 May 7th, 2010, 06:11 AM

I hate waiting for AF, that's why I never test till she is late. then the wait isn't so long. HUGS girl, i'm so sorry about the bfn. Hopefully the clomid will kick your body into gear this next cycle and you will get that wonderful bfp!!!

pisceeangel · #6 May 7th, 2010, 10:09 AM

I am so sorry you are so down. I've been in your shoes and know the devastation of thinking you will never be a mom. This weekend is especially hard. Clomid and progesterone also have an affect on your emotions/hormones which only adds to the rollercoaster. I agree that it is not over yet, I wish wonderful things for you!!