[ldovey83]

This time last yr I found out I was expecting my angel bean.. As May 28th approaches and I have to remember loosing my angel bean I have been feeling rather depressed... I am praying that I did enough and that AF stays away, but right now I don't feel to pos, and she is due the day after my angelversary...

[markswife]

I'm so sorry. Angelversaries are so rough without having AF ruin things more. I really hope she stays away. I'm praying for you. We are always here for you if you need someone to talk to.

[ldovey83]

Thanks for the prayers and just reading and listening.. I feel like I can't talk to anyone about it here locally cause they all think i am weird... My angel was a child weather I lost him or her early on and it hurts...

[markswife]

I was due in September and already blocked the day before and the day after my EDD off my schedule. I fully expect to spend the day curled in a ball crying all day.

It's sad that no one who hasn't experienced this really understands the pain. Even my mom commented that she didn't know how sad I was. I told her my child died, how do you think I feel? I don't care if he or she was five weeks, five months, or five years. It was a child and when I lost the baby, I lost a piece of myself with him or her.

There is nothing weird about being sad about your loss. I think it would be weird to just move on like nothing happened and not be sad.

[ldovey83]

i have had two one in may and one in Aug.. I feel like I lost a piece of myself with both of them... None of my friends helped during that time.. I had to stop talking to them cause none of them knew the pain I was going through... It is rough. i wish I could block these days off my schedule but with a toddler I am needed..

[tobi4]

Im sorry you are having to face this day. Its so sad. ~~hugs~~

[~LaurenNoel~]

I am so sorry...

[funnygal]

I'm sorry, those dates hurt, and are always a reminder of what might have been. Even after having children after my first loss, I still remember the due dates, the date I found out she was gone, the date I delivered her, ect. (hugs)

[ldovey83]

Yeah I don't think having more kids will ever make me forget or replace the pain I felt.. I will always remember it. Just alot of my family tells me that I need to wait to have another child and let my body rest.. I am like hello it has almost been a yr since the second loss.. I mean come on.. The DR told me I could start trying in Jan and I have been.

[j&jmom]

I'm sorry you are feeling down. I keep counting the cycles before my loss's EDD and hoping I get pg before then. Although with dh's crazy schedule this next year, we may miss several opportunities to conceive. I'm just hoping our schedules match up at least one perfect time!

[BuckeyeGal23]

I'm so sorry - I haven't gotten to the point of hitting anniversaries yet, so I can't imagine how you are feeling...all I know is how bad it hurts for me, and I can only imagine that is an even greater scale for you after going through the dates again. ((hugs))

[lex1078]

Angelversaries are really hard on anyone. I hope the day is easy on you and you get your BFP this month.

[~Lynda~]

angelversaries are so difficult!!! big big hugs to you. I hope AF doesn't show. STay positive!!!

[.:Shortcake:.]

Hugs for you during this difficult time. I pray AF doesn't arrive!

[RinkMom]

I hope AF stays away and you can have something positive happen in May.
I find Angelversaries and EDDs so tough as well. I already told DH that I don't want to be in town when Aug 25th (our EDD) comes around. I think if I am away and focusing on having fun then it won't be as hard.
Good luck. Hugs.
And remember, you are not alone. We are here and we DO understand.

[Celena]

Lindsey I'm so sorry honey just want to give you the biggest ever!