Hello again to some familiar faces and some new...(miscarriage mentioned)

JesSsica · #1 May 23rd, 2010, 06:43 PM

Well, loss #3.

I thought I was in the clear because I was so close to my second trimester. I was 11 weeks on Friday. I woke up Saturday morning after my belly being mildly uncomfortable all night. I felt a pop and then another pop way deep inside and then spontaneously started to hemhorrage.

I bled hard for 5 hours straight and ended up needing a D&C to stop the bleeding. I was numb.

I'm over it now. I'm emotionally spent, confused, and mad. My dh and I are so sad and not wanting to ride this emotional roller coaster again for a long time.

I may lurk from time to time until we make a definite decision on what's next. I just wanted to wish you all tons of baby dust and tons of luck. Life is so confusing sometimes.

missy123 · #2 May 23rd, 2010, 06:46 PM

Jessica - I so did not want to open this post. I am so sorry for your loss...

JessP · #3 May 23rd, 2010, 06:48 PM

I am so sorry you went through another loss or any loss. I totally get the unsure of what to do next. I pray that things will get better for you over time.

RinkMom · #4 May 23rd, 2010, 07:00 PM

Jessica,
I don't think we've met -- I'm a newbie. Just wanted to say that I am so sorry you had to come back:9

markswife · #5 May 23rd, 2010, 07:31 PM

Oh Jessica, this is so sad. I'm just really really sorry you have to go through this again. Life is really unfair sometimes. Big hugs to you.

mom2njia · #6 May 23rd, 2010, 07:46 PM

Jessica, I am so sorry for your loss. I was in the Dec DDC too. I found out 4 weeks ago my pregnancy was more than likely a blighted ovum, so I left the board, but I was still lurking. I was so sad to see your news. It took until Friday for my doctors to agree my body was not passing the pregnancy on its own and I had a d&c. I feel the same way you do. Angry, sad, confused and have no idea if I can handle this again. All I can do is say you are in my thoughts and prayers.

MeganMomof5 · #7 May 23rd, 2010, 08:30 PM

I'm really sorry to hear about your loss

BigGrin · #8 May 23rd, 2010, 09:44 PM

I am so sorry, I wish there was a way to take some of the burden from you. big hugs

KAB · #9 May 23rd, 2010, 09:52 PM

I'm so sorry for your loss.

lou5 · #10 May 24th, 2010, 12:28 AM

I am so sorry for your loss

dreamer10 · #11 May 24th, 2010, 05:52 AM

Jessica....I am so very sorry you have to come back here. I am so sorry the loss of your little one. Hang in there....

lex1078 · #12 May 24th, 2010, 06:08 AM

Jessica, I'm so sorry for your loss. You can post all you need too here and not have to worry about lurking. I hate so much that you have to come back here.

BeccaM · #13 May 24th, 2010, 07:08 AM

Jessica I am so sorry you are having to return to this board. Im very sorry for your loss. BIG HUGS!!

tobi4 · #14 May 24th, 2010, 07:34 AM

Awww Jessica, this is just so sad, Im so sorry this has happened again.

mmllhh · #15 May 24th, 2010, 07:45 AM

Hi jess, it's not fair that you have to come back here, I'm so sorry that you have to go thru this again.
Have they done any testing on you? If not, i think you should ask for it. Just to have some answers and a plan of action when you decide to ttc again.

ldovey83 · #16 May 24th, 2010, 08:36 AM

Oh no Jessica.. I am so sorry you are going through this again.. I can't even imagine.. I will being saying a prayer for you and your DH and your little angel.. Many many hugs to you hun.

BuckeyeGal23 · #17 May 24th, 2010, 09:34 AM

I was so sad to see your name next to this post...we were in the Dec DDC club together, and I was really pulling for you and thought you were in the clear after your ultrasound scare....I'm so sorry to see you over here

I can't imagine what you are going through - I know how hard one loss was, I can't imagine three.

JesSsica · #18 May 24th, 2010, 10:15 AM

Thanks everyone. I appreciate the thoughts and prayers so much. I'm still just numb. One minute I think I'm fine and then the next minute I'm in tears. I know a lot of it is hormones though. I've spent so long pregnant over the last several months that my poor hormones are probably completely screwed up.

My doctor has done nothing. He doesn't count my chemical pregnancy as a loss-- "they're common". He looks at it like I've only had two losses and he's not worried until three. I couldn't do this again.

I see him again in a couple of weeks. I'm going to tell him that if/when the day comes that we try again I want lots of testing done. If that's all clear then he's going to monitor my levels. I've NEVER heard of a practice that doesn't routinely do HCG levels "because they don't tell much anyway". Weird.

Thanks for letting me get this off of my chest here. You guys can empathize and that's what I need right now. It sucks that any of us are here. I just never dreamed I'd be back after three. So strange...

MomtoCTSK · #19 May 24th, 2010, 10:25 AM

I am a new face but I wanted to say that I am sorry for your loss. Hugs.

Jennifer8080 · #20 May 24th, 2010, 11:38 AM

I'm so sorry for your loss. Sending hugs, thoughts and prayers your way. Have you considered seeing another OB? My first OB wasn't "concerned" about my losses, especially because they were early. I found a new OB who is much more proactive.