[OwensMommy25]

It's been almost 3 months since we lost our twins, and we've decieded to start trying again. I am so scared. I've been emotional, worried, tearful. I'm so scared that I'll lose another baby. We lost the twins at 11 weeks, so we thought we were out of the woods.... I can't go through that again. I know the chances are low it would happen again, and we do have a perfectly healthy son, which I am totally greatful for, but I'm longing for that pregnant feeling again. I guess I'm ranting.... I just know you ladies will understand.

[MomtoCTSK]

I think it is a totally normal feeling. I know that the next pregnancy I have will be as worrisome as my first now that I have had a miscarriage. I hope that after all this you will have a happy and very healthy nine months.

[amychristian]

I completely understand how you feel! I was just talking about this the other day in a different thread that I posted (http://www.justmommies.com/forums/f1...questions.html (Introduction (PG, MC, D&C Mentioned) and Post-Op Cycles/Ovulation/Charting Questions)). Our baby also stopped developing around 11 weeks. I just totally relate to what you're saying. I have that fear, too.

I miscarried in February and we tried this month, and at first I thought I was past the grief and anger, but as soon as the possibility of being pregnant again sunk in, I started getting really, really, anxious and afraid of the reality of losing another one. Sometimes I hope we weren't successful this month -- that's how scared I am. I know that seems like a terrible thing to say on a TTC board, but I just don't know if three months was long enough. I thought I was ready, but now I'm just not sure. Of course, I will be happy if we were, but there's still a part of me that's scared, part of me that thinks we didn't wait long enough.

I'm sorry for the loss of your twins and I hope you feel better soon.