[hollann1984]

I usually just lurk around this board but ive really been fighting something recently and wanted to vent it to you ladies if thats ok. I had a loss about 3 months ago( it was an early loss) and we have continued TTC eversince( we recently found out i dont always ovulate which makes it frustrating). The point of why im scared, and im sure you all have been through this, is what if this happens again? Just the thought of it happening again is enough to make me cry. Im just so scared. I had someone say this to me once" if its something you really want, you have to take the risk of it possibly happening again in order to achieve it(i.e. baby)" which i know is true but being on here i notice it can happen more than once.
Sorry for going on and on i just know some of you ladies feel the same way. Im just still upset and mad because i know that the next time i get pg i will not be able to be carefree and enjoy it.

[missy123]

I can say for myself it was the overwhelming desire for a baby that made me keep trying. What you are feeling is normal. I hope you never have to experience a loss again. ((Hugs))

[Celena]

Hi Holly,

I'm glad you came back over to talk about this!!! It's definitely the little one that keeps us going... we will never know unless we try and here were are trying away. It's a scary possibility that it might happen again, devastating to think about and at the same time if we don't try we won't know... hoping, praying, wishing, dreaming for the little one to be blessed with. A healthy pregnancy, a healthy birth, a healthy BABY safely in our arms... that's it!

It's never going to be carefree for us after having a loss or those of us who have had multiple losses... there's going to be that nagging worry, nagging fears and nagging concerns! I'm sorry, not trying to scare you... you know tho, like right now. The thoughts that flood our minds. But we're here for you Holly, please know that. No matter what is weighing heavy on your heart.

[Lex&angels]

I feel the same way.
What we will do is wait until the fear of loss is lesser than the desire to be pregnant again. No matter how long that takes. When emotionally the dominant feeling about pregnancy is no longer fear, but joy, then we will try.
We're also going to talk to a doctor and go gluten-free.

[dreamer10]

It is very scary...we all know how you are feeling. Hang in there and good luck with trying again. When you do we will all be here to ride the emotional roller coaster with you....

[BuckeyeGal23]

I feel the same way - I am terrified to get pg again because I had no idea I was miscarrying (it was a missed m/c) and that is SO SCARY...I think we probably all have that same fear. Sometimes being on the boards can make me more nervous, so I take a break.

But, referring to your lack of ovulation...have you been tested for pcos? I was annovulatory for 147 days before being diagnosed...typically missed ovulation is the first indicator.

[Isabelle]

Hugs Holly.
xxx

[hollann1984]

Thanks so much ladies... you always have a way of making me feel better and reassured.
I was gonna talk to my doc about pcos due to the lack of ovulation.
Lex I'm gonna pm you cause I would like to know more about the gluten free idea