[Celena]

a great friend told me tonight "if we don't have hope, what else is there?"

So here it is, I have this thing that is called a POAS addiction and for some bizarre reason I poas... even tho I started bleeding yesterday... I have been extremely heavily bleeding (overnight pad, ULTRA tampax the highest absorbancy you can get from any tampon!) so really I shouldn't have even WASTED a test (inet cheapie btw) I got a light second line. There was ZILCH yesterday and today, it wasn't with FMU either.

It's not right tho, I was thinking this am that my bleeding was much heavier than usual... thought perhaps it was that biopsy. I've had all sorts of weird thoughts since the biopsy really. Called RE's office and asked the ans service guy if there was anyone who covers her while she's out of town, he said he'd send her the message and so I left one with him. He said she would call when she recieved it and I've yet to hear anything.

Right now yes I'm scared, numb... am I hopeful? or sad?... neither, until I know what's going on and right now all I know is there was a light, but pink colored line. It's definitely there, no mistaking about it. And of course, pic included the color is darker IRL like any other hpt test pic on here.



So... Am I pregnant? Am I miscarrying? Am I pregnant and miscarrying?

the mystery is truly a mystery :/

[Kary♥RN]

Sweety like I said earlier.. that is not a light line.... That is a Positive... Now here is my thought.. Now that I can take my time and type alot.. since texting.. I would be able to type all this... OK.. so lets look at this.. You were negative yesterday. You had already started to bleed... So lets keep that hope... OK follow me.. SO yesterday you were already bleeding and you were testing negative.. Are they 10 or 20 mui?? What ever the sensitivity.. you are still bleeding quite heavy but you test positive???? Are you following what I am saying?? You had to "double" to have that postive show up on the test strip that pink... I know you are scared.. I know you are bleeding... But lets just keep hope that, the bleeding is from the biopsy.. and that little bean is digging in.. you to give you that Positive!!!!

Hope baby, hope!!!!

And I'll pray.. Love ya!!!!

[missy123]

Hi Sweetie... What other meds are you taking right now? Remember last year I thought I was pregnant and thought I had a chemical when in reality it was the phernagan I was taking for nausea? Lets start with that and go from there.

This is said out of love.... please stop poas'ing.... It hurts me that you are scared and hurting.

I am going to jump in the shower soon but you can text me if I am not here on JM... I am here for you.

[KAB]

I can't imagine how confused and scared you must be, please KUP. You'll be in my T&P.

[Celena]

I love you ya's so much...

Kary I think I gotcha, you're too funny. I can hear you saying it all in my head like you're right here. Still waiting to hear from the RE's office whoever is on duty, Dr.F is out of town from last week thur to this week wed. If anything I'll see if they're open monday if I don't hear anything and if bleeding, cramps n pain kick up more then I'll go get checked out for sure.

Missy you're right, I should know better than to torture myself like this. What two fricken neurons are misfiring now to not stop the impulse? Need to rattle my head a little bit and fix it har har har

Haven't changed any meds in a long time, not than from before. Altho I am a bit more positive than yesterday, at lease my eyes are above water.

Kelly, thanks chica! It's ok right now, just going to keep going about everything like normal or try to. Nothing we can do right now anyways, so here we are. Here we sit. Going to try to enjoy the long weekend and hope the rain doesn't dampen the beach weather.

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Hey.... I will say that right now the numbness is a good thing... let's see how the next few days pans out. We're going to keep on trucking and carrying along.

[KAB]

Well I'm keeping my fingers crossed for you! I hope your RE office gets back to you soon and can shed some light on this.

[Jennifer8080]

I'm keeping everything crossed for you - you're in my prayers! Please keep us posted when you hear back from the RE.

[Celena]

Temo has dropped drastically, it had been for a couple of days and so I didn't take it yesterday. That test from yesterday, it has to be a weird freak fluke thing because I don't see anything on the one that I took this am.

Thanks ladies, there's waaaay too much bleeding, cramping and pain associated with this flow to even think that there was a chance kwim?

Honestly I don't even like to post anything like this because nothing positive ever comes out of it and I always look like suck a fricken FOOL. (ie: last cycle, this cycle, the cycles I did get pg in always ended in m/c) Anyways, guess it's the fact we're all in here together... like robin hood all for one and one for all.

(but I want to kick all of you out to PAL go get 'em ladies)

[markswife]

Celena, I'm really sorry it isn't better news. I don't think you should ever feel silly about anything that you post on here. The whole idea of this group is for us to share all of our emotions whatever they may be with a group of people that know exactly how we feel.

If anyone needs to be kicked into PAL, it is you! I hope next cycle is all you!!

[ldovey83]

Celena I am so sorry hun.. That test is cruel as is alot of tests that you have been taking.. I hope that you get your BFP very soon and leave with everyone else.. Many Many hugs to you.. Please stay strong.. HUGS hun...

[KAB]

I'm sorry that the test may have been a fluke, and you do not look like a fool for posting that, I'm glad that you did share. One of these days, something good will come.

[~LaurenNoel~]

I am sorry you have to deal with all these let-downs. You are no fool hun, that's for sure. We are here for you. *hugs*

[missy123]

Sorry sweetie... They make B movies just for days like this Many hugs... I am here for you.

[Servilia]

Hon you're anything but a fool! I'm sorry the test was a fluke - sometimes I really hate those ICs!

[Isabelle]

Hugs

[JessP]

I wish you were getting a fabulous BFP and a wonderful stickie bean. I am so sorry you are going through this hun.

[RinkMom]

Oh Honey,
I was hoping for better news. I really want to see you get that BFP!

[brandimomof2]

Oh gosh. Sorry. Just keep looking up. Your BFP is coming soon!!!

[happymommy2010]

Don't give up hope!

[*MomofO&Nat*]

Celena,
Yup, still stalking you here. I check here almost every day because I know soon you and the other lovely ladies are going to have sticky beans to report about! I am so sorry this roller coaster keeps running for you, but as someone above said, don't give up hope!!