[EJsMommy]

Hey Ladies,
I appreciate the support you have given me since I joined in the beginning of this year. The baby desire has consumed me to the point that me and my husband hardly speak. We spoke open heartedly yesterday and I need to start working on myself again as I have lost a part of me and my personality. I have done what I promised myself not to do which was to give into a promise that was not made by God (this is my belief). I have re-center myself and start again.

I will come back but I need to work on getting myself back and let the rest of the hurt disappear from my heart.

[Celena]

Lovisa

You're a strong woman, stronger than you think To be to the point you are and recognize it is a huge feat in itself! You can do this, you can heal and be the best of you again. I hope that you both grow together more than ever before in this time and are blessed with happiness, sense of peace deep within your heart.

If you are up for it, keep us posted on how you're doing you know we'd love to hear from you!

[EJsMommy]

Celena thank you. I got myself into a false sense of security thinking everything was all good and fine but in reality it was everything but that. I will stop by in here from time to time and post my process in my healing.

[tobi4]

I wish you the very best. You have been a wonderful support to so many women here. You have made a difference, and I thank you for that. As Celena said you are such a strong woman. I have no doubt that you will find that part of you that you are looking for again. I look forward to seeing your posts. Good luck. ~~hugs~~

[lex1078]

I wish you the best. Our lives get so consumed over things that we can't have right that moment and we become other people. Good luck and please stop by when you can. You will be missed.

[EJsMommy]

Thank you ladies for your kind words. I will stop by but not as often as in the past. Currently started reading a very thought provactive and challenging book (positive): In a pit with a lion on a snowy day - Author Mark Batterson. This is a book that center around Benaiah a man that chased a lion into a pit and defeated the lion against all odds. This little story comes from 2 Samuel 23:20 in the bible for those of you who wants to read it.

[BuckeyeGal23]

Well I am sorry to see you go...but it's so important to take care of yourself and your family - I wish you the best of luck and look forward to your updates!

[Natalie_Snow]

Lovisa, I wish you the best and I wish you good luck in any decision that you make!! I hope you come back soon!

[missy123]

Lovisa - I COMPLETELY understand everything you are going through. I let TTC consume me to the point where that was everything I thought about. I spend every spare minute of my day researching the internet trying to find new ways to get pregnant, spent more than should have amount of money at an RE.... Got really depressed... My moods were all reflective on where I was in my cycle. If AF showed I was sad and angry... towards O time I was excited, happy and hopeful... then AF would show again and I would sink farther down.

We stopped all together. It is different for me as I am way old (LOL) and I still have really sad moments where I wish I was pregnant, wish I could make him a daddy... but each day I am becoming ME again! We even had great sex yesterday! Yup, sex - not baby dancing.

Pop in now and again, don't forget about everyone here as there are girls that really care about you.

[EJsMommy]

I promise that I will not leave all together forever but I need time to refocus on the family I got which happen to be the most important person in my life including God of course.