[Could_this_be_it]

I wanted to introduce myself. I am a 27-yr-old (soon to be 28) female who is trying to conceive her first baby. I first found this site about 4 yrs ago when I had an unexpected pregnancy that ended in miscarriage. Although the pregnancy was not planend and it was with a guy I'd just started seeing only months after getting out of a longterm relationship, soon after I found myself wishing I was pregnant and having a baby...and constantly trying to prove to myself (and prove so-called "friends" wrong) that I really was ready and capable to have made it work if I hadn't miscarried.

My desire to have a baby, along with my readiness to settle down, led to my involvement in a 2yr+ relationship with a guy that was really great except for his discomfort and immaturity with broaching the baby topic, let alone trying to conceive. I mean, he is in his 40s -- if he doesn't think he's "ready" now, when the heck does he think he will be?! Furthermore, I have fertility issues and there's plenty more of those that run in my family, so my biological clock is running out faster than the average girl my age. So I severed that relationship and moved out of his house (even though this meant a much more expensive living situation) by my lonesome, in effort to either: a) find a guy who wants to settle down very quickly and start a family with me, or b) become a single mom by choice.

Currently I live by myself except for a few fuzzy pets. I work as a teacher at an inner city high school...it is a challenging but rewarding job that I am very proud of. I have a rather OCD personality and people say I worry too much, but the way I see it I just want things to turn out right...I can't stand uncertainty about the future, especially since I went through a slew of hardships (unemployment, being a theft victim, multiple deaths of loved ones, my aforementioned miscarriage, etc) in the past 5yrs. I probably spend way too much time reading about pregnancy and researching single-motherhood-by-choice and budgeting my salary for it. I am looking forward to relaxing during my long summer vacation from work and hopefully spending a lot of time trying to conceive with my FWB lol.

Sorry so detailed...but that's me! Just wanted to say hi!

[BuckeyeGal23]

Welcome to the board! This board is a great place to get your questions answered and just vent sometimes. If you don't mind me asking, what fertility issues are you facing? I have endo and pcos, and I just turned 28 so we are fighting a similar battle. I can definitely relate to having that clock ticking louder than anything else you can hear! I think it's great you are ready to do what it takes, even if it means it's on your own. Good luck!

[Could_this_be_it]

Thank you for the support I have a few medical issues, one being a history of multiple miscarriages. I also have a predisposition to a pretty lousy reproductive cancer too, which sucks because cancer runs HEAVY on both sides of my family and that is why I do not have a mother alive today.

I'm glad you wish me luck with blazing my own path into motherhood. I gave that topic a lot of thinking and realized that I'd much rather be a single mom who never ends up getting married, than even being married but forever childless. I also do not want to be 37 yrs old chasing after a toddler. Right now I have a FWB (friend with benefits) who I've known for a few years who says he will help me out...hopefully this will keep going and not turn out to be a hoax (I'm skeptical of guys...read my other post about my recent ex and you'll see a tip of the iceberg as to why lol).

Good luck to you too, by the way How long have you been TTC? I just started a few months ago but was trying off and on during my last relationship (although that was a rather one-sided TTC, which is why I dumped him).