[kitkat8323]

So its been almost a year since i lost my baby so thought id be preggo by now still not. A few weeks ago with in a day of each other a girl i worked with told us she was preggo the next day my bf called and told me she was preggo i lost it as in complete melt down sobs to the point my sides hurt the next day then today found out another lady i know is due in jan along with like 4 other girls i work with due between now and sept and to top it off my cousin who is the same age as me just had her 4th kid this week. Not to mention i work with infants 6 weeks to 6 months so that in it self is a daily reminder of what i lost ughhhh its making me very bitter i tried to talk to another one of my friends and she told me if im a true friend i just need to put my feelings aside and be happy for my bf . i dont think im in the wrong for not being over the moon happy for her cause shes preggers am i in the wrong?

[BuckeyeGal23]

I'm so sorry hon - it's so hard to see everyone else around getting preggers and you aren't. I don't think your feelings are wrong, but you have to remember it's not your friend's fault that she's pregnant and you aren't - I have to remind myself this all the time when I am around my pg friends. Maybe you can just distance yourself from her for awhile if you can just to have some time to deal with the news and other overwhelming feelings?

[kitkat8323]

well she lives in a totally diff state then me but everytime i go in facebook she has something in her status that just digs at me plus shes gonna be in my wedding so im gonna have to deal with that when that comes im seriously at the end of my rope i feel like im on punked and ashton is gonna pop out at anytime lol

[aitch]

I'm so sorry hun. Just when you think things are getting easier something like this comes up and slaps you in the face again. You aren't wrong, you're perfectly entitled to feel those things and as much as everyone things we "should be over it" things happen to remind us that we aren't and likely never will be.

I guess the only other comment I have is try not to dent your relationship with your BF. You need her, she needs you and hopefully the two of you can come to terms with it together. She probably had some reservations about telling you, too. I know when I told my BF about my first pregnancy (she can't have kids) I was dreading it. It doesn't change how you feel and neither should it but I'd bet she had some trepidation in telling you.

Just my 2 cents.

[ldovey83]

I can totally relate cause I swear everyone I know is getting pregnant right now.. I had both of my bf's pregnant when I lost my first and second babies, and it wasn't easy, and trust me even to this day it still isn't easy.. I see thier babies and wonder why I am not holding mine and showing pics off... Now that I lost my third baby they both took a few days before they talked to me.. One more so then the other.. I had to tell myself that it isn't thier faults that my body won't work properly but it is very hard.. I have even had two close friends that didn't want the baby one aborted it and the other had the baby and now she is in love.. It is just one of those things in life that we can't control and we can't control how we feel.. You are definitely not wrong for feeling that way.. HUGS hun.. If you need to talk you can PM cause like I said I am going through the same thing..