[Ejayy28]

Hi Ladies!

I guess I'm in need of some encouragement or positivity or SOMETHING. Our little one was stillborn in February of this year.... we've been trying since April and it's June and no luck (or so I think).

My period was due yesterday May 20th....I've been calculating, recording temps, and everything...thought for SURE I had achieved this month....but I'm sure I haven't. I believe I OV around June 3rd, DH and I BD June 1st, 3rd, 4th and the 8th once a day. After I ov'd I recorded all my symptoms day after day. Here they are:

1-4 DPO: None; BD'd on day 1 and 2
5 DPO: BD Freq urination (probably because I was DOWNING Water allll day. It was so hot) and maybe a yeast infection. Not too sure; CM was very creamy and slightly clumpy. I treated with topical cream.
6 DPO: Creamy/Clumpy CM
7 DPO: "" and freq urination
8 DPO: Fatigue and moody
9 DPO: bloated, drink a little tiny bit of Vodka (maybe 1/4 or 1/2 shot) mixed with Cranberry juice
10 DPO: fatigue, moody
11 DPO: Light Nausea, BD, MAJOR FATIGUE between 2-6pm
12-13 DPO: None out of the ordinary
14 DPO: FR test--NEGATIVE
15-16 DPO: None out of the ordinary
17 DPO: (This was the due date of our little angel) AF should have came this day. Light nausea in AM, Slept til 10am (which is LATE for me) and napped TWICE in PM, slippery clear CM
18 DPO: TODAY, MAY 21, 2010--VERY SAD AND MOODY/ UPSET. Felt as if I'm going to burst into tears. Cursed DH out, and called SEVERAL times (so out of my character but I couldn't stop) Major headache all day. FR Test when I came home from work...NEGATIVE. Day 2 of projected AF....and still no sign

I'm so lost and sad. I'm going to test again Friday if AF doesn't come but I'm so upset...I'm so sure I'm out this month. Preg calc said I'm 4 weeks 3 days...so maybe it's still too early?? But people find out they're PG like 3 weeks!! Ugh it's just so upsetting; I'm sorry for the long post but I'm just disappointed. I don't want another disappointment.

[Kary♥RN]

HUGS... Honey you have only been trying for three months... I know it feels like an enternity.. After two of my losses.. it took 7 months... To get my BFP... (I went on to m/c twice, for a total of three losses)... Some people body's just need a little extra time. I know you want it now. I totally understand. I know the disapointment. But just keep your head up. It will happen, it will. But just know you are not alone. HUGS

[Servilia]

First I'm so sorry for your loss, how heartbreaking

I agree with Kary, not everyone (in fact most people don't) conceive as fast as they taught us in high school. I know that's not much consolation and we all want to be those who conceive really easily, but just know you're not alone

I TTC for 5 months before getting my BFP, and then I miscarried in late March at 6 weeks.. and since then nothing. So you're definitely not alone. But don't give up, keep your chin up and it will happen soon!

[Ejayy28]

Thanks Ladies

I've been doing this since April, getting my hopes up thinking my dream is gonna magically come true. I get so envious seeing pregnant bellies everywhere. And at the end of each month I say I'm going to wait to TTC then I find myself running to the store to buy another pack of FRERs. Wish Sam's Club sold a value pack of 48 then maybe the cashier's in walmart won't look at me funny (lol).

It's summer time and DH and I haven't been doing much together so maybe I'll take the summer off and have some fun? Hmmm we'll see....if I'm definately out this month I'm going to TRY not to obsess over this so much. It's just hard knowing that I could have had my little angel with me today. But thanks so much girls. It means alot....

[MeganMomof5]

Don't give up...I know it's frustrating....I had a stillborn in October, and found out 3 months after her birth that I was pregnant...My pregnancy ended in miscarriage, and i'm trying again....It's something that's so heartbreaking when you lost a baby and want one so bad, only to be disapointed when you don't get pregnant right away...2 months isn't that long, and i'm sure you'll get your BFP soon!!! Good luck!!!!